You reckon?

" Marriage is not about finding someone you can live with for the rest of your life, it's finding someone you can't live without "


Yakinlah bahawa sesungguhnya jodoh itu rahsia Allah masanya pasti akan tiba...





PS Ya Allah, berikanlahku PetunjukMu.

Lesson 4: Be Positive!

" It's not about what happened in the past, or what you think might happen in the future, it's about the ride. There is no point in going through all this crap, if you are not going to enjoy the ride, and you know what... when you least expect something great might come along, something better than you even planned for "

( Along Came Polly)

Lesson 3: Change for good

" Everyone thinks of changing the world but no one thinks of changing himself "

this part, let's pray to be a better person, everyday, and I will pray that us will be a better person in the future, insyaAllah :)

Lesson 2: Sincere

" I will try my best to mean what I say and say what I mean "

Lesson 1: Dream

" Close your eyes and make a wish: I'd give anything to know that one day i'll be happy :) "

It's never too late for a second chance

Nights in Rodanthe. One of the stories written by Nicholas Sparks. Nazren asked me to watch it but it gave me goose bump whenever I read the taglines: It's never too late for a second chance. I've never believe in second chance, even though, my whole life, I've been given second chances too many times.  Well, perhaps I don't believe it when it comes to love. Hati dan perasaan tak boleh buat main. Yes, people make mistakes, but you don't go ditch the good ones, and have fun with others and out of the blue, knock on the good ones' door and say things like hye! I'm ready to commit. that's simply bullshit.

so Yesterday I have the courage to watch it after he nags me to watch. The story goes something like this: there's this woman with her life in chaos called Adrienne, once an artist, has 2 children and an ex-husband who left her about 7 months ago and now who has asked to come home with him. she retreats to the tiny coastal town of Rodanthe, to tend to a friend's inn for a weekend where she meets Dr. Paul, the only guest in the inn, divorced with 1 son and has to face his own crisis of conscience. It will then change to one magical weekend that will change the rest of their lives.

A week later, she came home and said No to the husband, while Dr. Paul, is his own self again, not in regrets and leading a happy life. Yes, they do keep in touch trough letters and decided on one night to meet. She prepared everything for that night when he did not show up. Yes, she waited forever for him to appear in front of her door but later that morning, a knock on her door, standing there, Dr. Paul's son. He came to tell her that, his dad died in the storm one night, but he wanted to thank the woman who has save his dad's live, saving each other's lives, and bringing back his old dad.

of course, she is devastated to hear the news. but she comes to her sense, even though he's dead, but their loves never die. I like the part where she told her daughter about him, this is what she told her:

"Ok, while your father and I were apart, I've met a man, I know you've only known your father and me, and I love your father, because he is your father but there's another kind of love, that gives you the courage to be better than you are, not less than you are, one that makes you feel, everything is possible, and I want you to know, that you can have that, I want you to hold up for it, I want you to know that you deserve it, you hear me?"

that's my favorite part of the movie. Indeed, she is a strong woman. Nazren, thank you for asking me to watch it. :) Let's go watch Message in a bottle pulak :P

oh Happy Birthday

I was chatting with a friend last night when my phone 'beeped' when the clock struck midnight. and I was wondering whose birthday was it? Guess who? Matty! Matty is friend of mine when I used to study in Perth. I immediately buzz him and we chat for awhile. Yep he is still the Matty I used to know, talking too much. anyhow, Happy Birthday Mate! You've been a huge help in my studies especially, when I was in Perth.

Jiwa ini

tuhan saja yang tahu.

rasa nak pergi jauh pon ada.

rasa xmau hidup lagi dalam dunia ni pon ada.

Tapi I do have to bersabar dengan ujian yang Allah beri. I have to be positive as well. Semoga Allah beri Petunjuk kepadaku dan semoga I will berubah ke arah yang lebih baik, InsyaAllah.

PS He's home already, Alhamdulillah :) it made my day and nothing else matters.

What happens next?

:P

outings

to take your mind off things. It doesn't help this tym and I wonder why. *sigh*

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Last Sunday went to Seoul Garden, OU to hang out with Yan. Basically, this time around, last year I helped one girl named Yan, at that time looking for a job. I was working at the bank in the HR department under the recruitment team, when she came to me and asking for a job. Nope, I did not get her that job, I just placed her name on top of the interview dates, called her up, and she did all the talking and scored the exam.

So last Sunday, after a year working there, she wanted to show her thankfulness and treat me lunch. She brought along a friend, and Mahram was there too. I did not know Yan directly, Mahram introduced her to me. Four of us, kekenyangan~ thank you Yan! you are so sweet :)

Yep, Yan was the one wearing pink. isn't she lovely? :P at the bank I did not get the chance to get to know Yan, well, she has different working hours compared to mine at that time. so this is my first time meeting her and get to know her (exclude interview) she said I'm a lot more bubbly compared to the day I interviewed her. Well, I'm always serious when I'm working and I take that as a compliment :P

Anyhow, thank you again for the treat, and nice knowing you guys. Hope you guys will have a brighter future ahead.

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Well, things do not just get off my mind even after the lunch treat so I decided to follow Ain, the next day to British Council, KL. she wanted to take English - the language, seriously and I thought It's cool so I don't mind showing her the way to British Council. Mind you, to take the placement test, you'll need to pay around RM100 and the class might cost you up to RM900, just fyi. 

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Nowadays, KL has been one of my least favorite place to hang out to so I decided to go to Shah Alam with Lynn today. We did some fittings and measuring, and playing with colors. I guess it's a girl thing! pretty much laughing and smiling all the way but still having a hard time deciding for the best. 

Lynn is currently having her summer hols here in Malaysia. yippi yey, been ages since I last saw this girl. 

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Later tonight I've decided home is the best place to hang out! Everything under one roof!

Even though I've come to a conclusion that yeh probably I cannot take my mind off you but I will try my best to preoccupied and make myself useful. Please come back soon! I miss you.

I don't love him anymore.

So don't let your past destroy what comes tomorrow, save our hearts for care and loving too, it's hard I know, but oh one thing's for sure, don't go and break this fragile heart.

lets break this wall around us thats aiding both our hearts to grow in pain and if I could choose the world around me, the world I'd choose would all revolve around you, so help me complete the game inside me and help me mend this fragile heart.

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

How's it going? I've got loads to say to you but there are things better left unsaid. I really don't know how things are going on with you over there, but for me, there are couple of things I think you should know.

I may not say it out loud. I may not say it so often or I may not say it at all to your face because I'm afraid it might not come out exactly how I wanted to but you'd probably don't have any clue however really,

I am so proud of you! for trying so hard to be a better you.

You deserve all the happiness in the world!

happy

Today is the first Friday of 2011. and I'm still getting used to, to write 2011 in my daily activities. it's not that I hate 2011 but i am still long for 2010 but deep down I know 2011 will be another great year.

I am happy today. hope for many many happy things to come in the future, Ameen.