20 10 2010

You know how I love waking up in the morning and having the urge to try new things and being with crazy fun people that loves to do sort of things without having to think of boundaries and later on during the nites I would love to spend times with people who would warn me about yes and no in life, that calms me and tells me that whatever happens Allah is there..

Today, when I give it a second thought I'd love to spend the rest of my life with that person who would calm me.. because it feels right (:

Im one happy girl today, thank you :P

Tak Tahu

I woke up this morning wondering the exact same feeling as expressed in this puisi. One of my favourite Malay puisi by Siti Kholifah. Enjoy (:


disaat kau ada
aku merasa ta’ membutuhkanmu
tapi disaat kau menghilang
kenapa aku merasa ingin mencarimu
disaat kau dekat
aku merasa ta’ ingin bersamamu
tapi disaat kau dengan yang lainnya
kenapa aku merasa sakit melihatnya


aku ta’ kuasa menafsirkan rasa jiwa
ketakutanku terlalu dalam untuk menetapkannya
tapi hati ingin slalu menemukanmu
memastikan tentang keadaanmu

rindupun menjadi duri di jiwa
membuat wajahku basah dengan air mata
hati gelisah dengan berbagai tanya
ingin kusampaikan namun bibir ta’ mampu untuk berkata


dengarkanlah bisik hatiku
rasakanlah dengan setulus jiwamu
bacalah setiap sorot mataku saat menatapmu
setiap tingkah laku ku saat bersamamu

PS: uoy ssim I, Please be safe (:

101010

Today is 10th of October 2010. I guess, many people waited for this date to get married, engaged and get into relationships. I was just watching TV this morning with my mom on how the Mathematicians calculated today's date and related it to why it is a good number to get involved. Merepeks I know, but hye, it happens once every 100 years plus it's a Sunday. Give them a break! :P

To those who get married, engaged and be in a relationship today, I wish you happiness :)

and to those who is not getting married nor not even close to be in a relationship or just out from one, chill, just wake up in the morning and be happy :) I did. I'm one happy girl today :)

Had lunch at Eban's. It's good to be meeting her because honestly I haven't seen her in ages. then me and Dayek headed to Alamanda and watched Eat Pray Love :)  I'm not gonna blog on this movie but Yep, I love it or at least it made me cry :P

Oh! I also read some blogs who made 10 wishes on this day. Urm, but if I've given a wish today I'd wish for him to stop smoking because I love him and it's not good for his health. Ameen. I know it's hard but I will help you go thru this. please make him stop smoking, please :)

oh! well, Happy 101010 everyone. I hope you had a good one, no matter where you are (:

Letters to Juliet

Letters to Juliet. I did not see this film at an early screening but I managed to see it eventually and I find it very adorable and with many laughs to be had as well. Totally unexpected. The scenery of Italy in this story is very breathtaking. It just made you want to hop on a plane and be there at once. In this romance, located in Verona, Italy lies the beautiful city where Romeo first met Juliet - there is a place where the heartbroken leave notes asking Juliet for help.

People of the world gathered around to stick notes on the wall asking for Juliet's help. Some were crying, some were very devastating and most of them were mostly heartbroken and needed an asnwer, only an answer to whether move on with their love lives or stick to whatever obstacles they went through. some probably needed a YES or a NO as an encouragement or a comfort. but to Claire, she wrote a letter to Juliet 50 years ago but did not get a single answer.

50 years later, Sophie, a young girl found Claire's letter in between the walls and decided to answer the letter that later on turning things up side down. What I like about the letter Sophie wrote to Claire is this bit -

" What and If are two words as non-threathening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life? What if? What if? What if? "

Those are the words that Sophie wrote to Claire and made her flew back to Italy to find her true love that eventually will change her life completely. She also said that she doesn't know how Claire's story ended but if it's true love back then, it's never too late. All you need is a courage to follow your heart. It's easy said than done, I know, but I know one thing's for sure that love is love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it one day, I have the courage to seize it.

I will guarantee that after seeing this movie, you will remember your own love story and or hoping your own love story to come.

If I had the chance to travel to Italy, I'd write a letter to Juliet asking "Is he..is he..is he..the one for me, where are you now?"

Once a month, and each time, it rains..

Frankly speaking, I've been crying cats and dogs these past 2 days, only God knows why. and I know I've hurt people along the way, to those I've hurt you, I'm deeply sorry, did not mean to and I believe God has another plan for me, better I hope, Redha.

I love watching Bread, dreams and Love because even though the world seemed to be the cruelest place ever but Kim Takgu managed to smile. and he smiles beautifully. He said that even if you're happy or you're sad, just live. he has a point there. This is only a Korean Drama Series but I was really inspired. I wondered if there's a guy like Kim Takgu in this world, ever? ;P

I really wanted to be happy for the past 2 days. I really do. I've tried remembered what makes me happy in this life. Seeing others happy, make me happy, but it doesn't work this time because I was really hurt by the fact that they are really happy and I'm not and I got jealous. So I figured, what else can make me happy? I know forgive and forget will make me extremely a sane people. This will take time. I will try every night to forgive each people that have done wrong to me and hoping everyone will forgive me as well.

Then I remembered old promises, old debt, overdue works etc that I haven't repay them and everyone. Things that I need to do in this life, priority, that I take things for granted.

Today I am happy. Today we (Me, S, N and Z) went to Alamanda to try out the triple cheese burger at McD and ate some Baskin Robbins(BR) Ice Cream. I've promised S that I will buy him one on Wednesday(Pink day, 2 scopes for 1 price) for helping me out finding cerek for my mom. It just felt good looking at S, N and Z eating ice cream. It felt really good.

I never had a brother. and I always wanted a brother. not that I hate my sisters but I always wanted to know how is it like to have brothers. Bigger brother to protect me from getting hurt especially from the boys and at the same time brings back his guy friends at home for homework or watching football. and I always wanted to know how it is like to have a younger brother that I will not stop nagging about how not to break a girl's heart for sure.

I was really touched when S's special someone said thanks to me for nagging S to pray each time. Just like a sister S never had. If you guys are reading this, I just wish for happiness to both of you.

Yesterday I put a sign "I need a friend to talk" at YM and couple of friends did pm me and asked me why. to those people, I thank you. because yesterday when I cried and I needed to talk to someone and I have no one to turn to. but I know the world will seemed to be the cruelest place to live in but out of it there are portion of people, not many, that loves me dearly and people that I will not hurt for sure.

To someone I think I've made you worry for no reason and putting up a frown face each time I see you, I am sorry. if it's written this way then let it be. This one's for you.

Random

How to know when he's for real.
Since it bears repeating, let’s review a few of the traits that will tell you unequivocally that a guy is into you: 

• His actions match his words. He doesn’t just say he loves you or wants to be with you because he thinks that’s what you want to hear; it’s obvious by the way he behaves.
• He introduces you to his friends and family within a reasonable amount of time. This indicates that he’s increasingly serious about making you part of his life.
• His behavior is consistent. He isn’t into you one week and then distant the next. His affection for you is something you can rely on.
• He tries to please you. Because he’s genuinely interested in you as well as your thoughts and feelings, he acts on that. He knows you love the color yellow, for example, so he shows up with a bouquet of yellow flowers.
• You don’t feel like you’re doing all the work, and you never find yourself making excuses for him. As psychologist Geraldine Merola Barton puts it, “The truth is, we always find time for the things we value. If he’s into you, he’ll call, period… no matter what.”

**Taken from yahoo.Christina Frank.

Be-Tuah

Be-Tuah is the name of my newest toy. Be-Tuah's birthday is on the 15th of September 2010, Wednesday. Be-Tuah is very bold. Be-Tuah is my newest toy. Welcome to the family, Be-tuah ;), Welcome to the world. I hope you'll bring loads of luck to me ;) I love you Be-Tuah ;) One fine day I'll show who Be-Tuah is, when he's ready, to the world. Please capture all the beautiful things in the world, Be-Tuah.


Thank you Allah ;)