It's So Hard

I should be preparing for tomorrow but here I am blogging. I was cleaning up my room today, and each time I clean my room up, I'll read my favourite poem, folded it on a piece of paper. and each time I read it, I'll have the same exact feeling. Care to join? :P

It's from Becca Woolf

It's So Hard

It's so hard to say "I love you", and not draw back in tears,

It's so hard to know that you're not there to help me face my fears,

It's so hard to know the phone's at reach, but I cannot hear your voice,

It's so hard to know that this time breaking up was not my choice,

It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside,

It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide,

It's so hard to live without you, when I need you more than words,

To want to scream how much I love you but hold back and not be heard,

It's so hard to go to sleep when I cannot dream of you,

It's so hard to think that you might fall in love with someone new,

It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favourite song,

It's so hard to sit and wonder, where did I go wrong?

It's so hard to live without you, if I only would have known,

I will never love another, I would rather be alone.

probably it has to do with bukan senang untuk menjadi senang :)

CUN! Movie

Hari ini aku dibebel lagi oleh mama "suka sangat pergi tempat lagha tuh, nak rahmat Allah kenelah tinggalkan semua itu, nak rezeki dari Allah kenelah seimbang"

Aku senyap sahaja, deep down I know mama patut marah, she loves me to death, I took her hands and cium minta maaf.

Today I went to Alamanda to watch Cun! with BFF, aku guna alasan mahu fotostat itu ini untuk hari Jumaat ini, sememangnya aku sangat serabut untuk hari Jumaat ini. This morning I woke up crying again, rindu barangkali, so I decided to go out.

Cun!, cerita melayu yang biasa biasa sahaja. setakat mahu gelak gelak, suka suka, boleh lah. tapi ended up aku menangis juga. Well, if you know me that well, aku memang kuat menangis pun. Tak boleh tahan lah part Remy Ishak cakap, aku orang kampung sahaja, memang tak setanding dengan kamera kau yang banyak, memang banyak pon tapi ingat kau banyak duit boleh buat sesuka hati.

Mungkin juga sebab aku suka sangat dengan Maya Karin, aku pergi tengok. Cun! ini cerita tentang budak kampung ingin bercinta dengan budak bandar. Eh! banyak juga pesanan yang boleh didapati dari cerita ini seperti, orang bandar patut kurangkan guna energy untuk elak global warming and climate change, lagi satu, orang kampung pon kene kurangkan guna pesticide yang tidak organic.

Selain aku cuba untuk selam selam cerita ini, aku suka bila BFF komen "mungkin benda benda ini terjadi pada artis artis kita, realitynya; kawen kontrak, sponsor, dan lain lain"

"Ah! Siapa kata KLCC tak padan dengan sawah padi?" 


I've told you once and I'm going to tell you again "Buat tindakan jangan ikut emosi sahaja"

Forbidden Love

"We always long for the forbidden things, and desired what is denied us"

"Love forbids you not to love"

"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else"

"For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these "It might have been"

but..

"Things forbidden have a secret charm"

AH! sangat tempting, tak tipu, tapi mungkin ada hikmahNya :)

Stop searching forever, happiness is just next to you..

If not now, then when?

If not here, then where?

If not this, then what?

If not you, then who? :P

(thingsweforget, 2011)

Nah,I haven't found the one yet, I'm just saying that, probably in the search of 'the one', you don't need to migrate to another states or even to another country cause you might never know, she or he is so near to you.

oh! I wish for you on a falling star, wondering where you are, do I ever cross your mind, in a warm sunshine? :P where art thou? 

have you seen this star? :P

(tuk menggapai bintang, terangi hidupku)

True Wealth

Secara jujurnya, I hate the word wealth. Kaya? Ada apa dengan kaya? Jangan kawan dia, dia anak orang kaya. Mesti bahagiakan dia jadi orang kaya. dia mesti nak kawan dengan orang-orang kaya saja, yang miskin macam kita, dia mesti tak nak kawan. Bolehlah dia beli barang itu ini, pergi sana sini, dia kaya, tak macam kita. Alah, bukan duit dia pon, duit ayah dia, ayah dia yang kaya.

Apa kau tahu manusia? bercakap tak pandang kiri kanan? tak semena siang atau malam? and I don't think you'd want to be in my shoes either.

but frankly speaking, aku lagi benci poverty dari wealth. aku pernah ikut ayah masuk bandar keluar bandar, masuk kampung keluar kampung untuk kajian kemiskinan, dan aku benci kemiskinan. deep down, aku tahu mereka hidup bahagia (yang di kampung walaupun kais pagi makan pagi) tapi aku mahu tolong mereka keluar dari garis kemiskinan, aku percaya boleh, tapi apakan daya. Di bandar pula lain ceritanya, menggigil aku tatkala ayah berada disisi apabila masuk ke kawasan 'urban poverty' ini. kotaraya yang ku puja, rupanya indah khabar dari rupa. banyak lagi orang kita, orang melayu kita yang hidup susah di ibu kota. doakan aku berjaya sambung belajar dengan tajuk ini :D

I once heard that True Wealth is Family, friends and Health. 

Aku bersyukur dikurniakan family yang amat memahami aku. Yes, we do have ups and downs tapi air dicincang tak akan putus right? Family comes first, sayangilah family anda sebab when the world turns their back on you, you can count on your family, that's for sure.

kawan kawan, friends. aku ada kawan, yang suka nak berkawan dengan semua orang, bagi dia, dia akan bahagia kalau ada ramai kawan. I don't think that way, Yes true, berkawan biar beribu, musuh jangan di cari, tapi bagi aku, kawan kawan ini quality bukan quantity. Aku mencari sahabat bukan kawan tikam belakang.  Dr. HM Tuah pernah cerita, kau mungkin sampai mati pon tidak akan dapat cari sahabat sejati, tapi bagi aku nothing is impossible. Aku tahu dia diluar sana yang akan faham aku luar dalam. Tapi buat masa ini, I've found some great friends and you know who you are :D

Health. kesihatan. Physically and mentally. Tolonglah jaga kesihatan anda semua from now on. kelak tua merana, sekarang pon boleh rasa sakit sakit nya.

Waking up early in the morning dengan perasaan bersyukur for everything that I've got cause I know Allah boleh tarik bila bila masa sahaja. Blessed :) 

Lat Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal

Image source: google

Last night, April 2nd, 2011, Saturday, went to Istana Budaya with 6 other pretty girls, to watch Lat Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal. This was my 3rd time going to IB and 2nd time this year and Lat Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal has it's own way in capturing my heart last night. Two words : Super Awesome.

It started when Lat (most probably short form of BU-LAT) at Kampung, who likes to draw whenever and whatever he sees. He's being scolded by his mom because of it, the funniest part when he drew their house atas lantai rumah sendiri, how he adores their house and his kampung very much. His father who has a huge impact on him, likes to bring back used papers so that Lat could draw. His father also taught him that, kaum lelaki harus kuat sebab itu John Wayne tak nangis.

At school, Lat being laughed because of his angan-angan dan berangan. I like the lyrics of the Dalam Gila ada Rahsia when Nora sang the part "Lat, awak ini memang pelik, awak nombor satu bab merepek, hiduplah di dunia nyata, lukisan awak tak kemana". but that doesn't bring him down, he kept on drawing and imagining things, monsters and cowboy.

Luckily, his dad got promoted and they moved to Ipoh. There Lat met some supportive people like Mrs Hew  and his friend, Frankie who supported him and his drawing and they think that Lat can go far with his drawings. One of Mrs' Hew favourite quote is DWYL and LWYD "Do what you love and Love what you do".

Later on he moved to KL and worked at one of the local newspaper and met Pae (Faezah).

the rest of the story you have to watch it for yourself or at least read the comics by Dato' Lat himself.

thumbs up for barisan pelakon and di belakang tabir. you guys rock big times. I really like the joke from Frankie where he said (no offense for orang buta) but he made a joke on orang buta yang bawa kereta di KL and patutlah KL jammed. he probably wanted to say that please be considerate while driving and look right and left.

I also like the part where Frankie said that " you can take the boy out of the pekan but you cannot take the pekan out of the boy".

Oh! I've got a lot to say. but basically it's about ups and downs of a person's life. How he battled with his own feelings, when his father died, when he met Pae, when he cannot juggle his work and his family and most probably the fame that he got.

Overall, do what you love and love what you do, follow your heart and see where it leads you. at the same time, jangan sampai kacang lupakan kulit. 

"Mama, nak kawen dengan budak arts boleh?" :P

How I met your Father..

This is a story on how I met your father. Just kidding.

Well, on Dec last year, a dear friend of mine asked me to blog on him. I barely know him, even though I've got a lot to blog on him, but I waited a bit more, just in case, all of my writings in the end, make sense. But you know how things could turn around, go different directions, what you've planned didn't go as planned. How fate got twisted in the middle of things and even though I've got no idea what the future holds for both of us, here I am, blogging on you, as promised :)

This time around a year ago

Met you a year ago, get to know you better for 8 months, you brought joy even for a short period of time, take care dear friend :)

Never regret you, never regret us~ NEVER!