Reclaim your heart by Yasmin Mogahed

I was in tears. Can't help myself. Crying.

"I hate this place, why are these people behaving like this"

"I wanna go home"

Eventually I cry myself to sleep. I'm not saying sleeping can ease the pain. NO! but it helps. so I slept for awhile hoping this hurt will go away.

I can't remember how many hours I slept but later i decided to wake up and face the reality.

I cannot behaving like this. This is not human. I remembered, in 2011, someone dear to me told me this.

"Orang Islam kena kuat"

I nodded and tried my very best to put myself together.

I begin with folding all the clothes and put it in the closet. unpack my stuff then I saw something, a book that I bought last week at Kino, KLCC along with cinta hati. I've heard about the book and been wanting to buy it, so the very first time i saw the book, I got excited but unexpectedly, the book is thin and quite expensive. lucky me I still have baucar buku, then i decided to buy the book, thanks to the voucher. the book at Kino is RM104 ++. I really can't remember.

Then I stop doing everything I'm doing, I took the book, and open it. It suits the title. It reclaim the heart. I was in tears also but this time not because I was upset. its different.

The first chapter of the book is called "Why do people have to leave each other?" It was actually a dream by the author asking the same question. I cried reading the conclusion of the chapter: " ultimately the question was about the nature of the dunya as a place of fleeting moments and temporary attachments. as a place where people are with you today and leave or die tomorrow...

I remembered crying the whole time reading this book. it brought tears in my eyes on how wonderful, almost perfect choice of words used by the author. But I know it is Allah that helped the writer to write and it is Allah still, that bring this book to me.

I even wrote to the writer how happy I am having her book.

I'm suggesting each of you guys to have this book. I've placed this book at 'that place' so that when I'm lost or feeling alone, I could open this book up and know that I'm not alone, Allah is with me.

If anyone would like to purchase this book. kindly email me at hidcham@gmail.com only at the cost of RM90. Thank you :D

Highly recommended.

For a gift. For a wedding. For a friend. For sisters and brothers. For mothers and fathers. for yourself. for wives and husbands.

Happy reading!

Have a nice day everyone. B safe wherever you go.

love.

Everyone wants a perfect ending. But over the years I've learned that some of the best poems don't rhyme and many great stories don't have a clear beginning, middle or end. Life is about not knowing, embracing change and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next.

tears after tears.
I wonder if I ever be able to stay strong.
you have eaten me out.
with your words
and your actions.

I'm no perfect. I make mistakes. and so do you.
I'm here to learn.
to be better.
and not sour.
I forget how to smile.
I live in fear.
and I'm not happy.

But Allah loves me dearly. He surrounds me with loved ones.
the ones I've always wanted to be with - much more.
the family, the cats and fishes, the friends and also kekaseh hati.

But all I'm asking dear Lord, make me stronger each passing days.
make me survive these 2 years, insyaAllah.
and most importantly, be with me, each steps I'm taking.

and I know You are with me, always.

The Land Down Under

Di sudut hati kecil ku

tipu kalau aku kata aku tidak rindu

pada tempat itu

yang banyak mengajar aku tentang bangun jatuh kehidupan

teringin sekali aku membawa kekasih hati

berbulan madu di situ

bercuti dan berlibur

dan jauh sekali dari kesibukkan kota Kuala Lumpur

ingin sekali aku 

membawa kekasih hati

ke tempat bermainku

ke tempat menimba ilmu ku

ke tempat di mana aku lari minta berlindung

dari kesakitan hati dan manusia manusia

yang pernah buat aku menangis pilu

jika ditakdirkan rezeki ku untuk ke tempat itu lagi

akan aku bawa kekasih hati bersama sama sekali

walaupun dalam sedang dibuai mimpi

entah mengapa, aku rindu sekali pada tempat itu tanggal hari ini.

Shah Alam, 4th Januari 2013

PS bawa aku lari dari sini, sebentar cuma, aku mohon sebentar sahaja...

Happy 2013

It's never too late to wish everyone of you A very Happy New Year! New Year is just like any other day, I woke up this morning with the usual feelings and the same expectation; I just want to be happy. But the New Year's spirit is there, the feeling of wanting to be better and to do good things and to try new adventures. Bidding 2012 wasn't easy. All i can say is that, it was a good ending and a good beginning :)

2012: When a boy meets a girl. We talked. and it was epic. but then the sun came up and reality set in. Well, this is reality, right here.

Ps Pray for us guys, TQ :)

y o u k n o w w h o y o u a r e :)

kenapa kita tidak bangga dan senyum melihat kebahagian kawan kawan
sambil berdoa agar diberikan kebahagian dan keindahan dalam kehidupan
bukannya cemburu yang tak berhabisan
atau minta dia ditimpa kecelakaan

cukup2lah dunia saling bergaduhan
mengapa antara kita tidak senyum dan berpelukan?

Selamat tahun baru 2013 ♥

common sense

"kaum wanita senang masuk neraka kerana mulutnya, kaum laki laki pula kerana matanya"

"Barang siapa yang tidak menyibukkan diri dalam kebaikan, nescaya ia akan di sibukkan dalam keburukkan"

Malaysia, Happy Labour's Day!

After a very long hiatus and a one or two hesitation on deciding whether or not to blog again, I've decided to write on something on this blog after visited it a few times in this year. Yes, I miss blogging :)

So why bother blogging on this 1st of May? Labour's Day?

No specific reason. I'm merely a Part 1 student, not working YET and not going to Uni as well today. Decided to only chill at home and get some work done.

So in celebrating the Labour's Day today, let's talk something on jobs or career.

I woke up this morning and checked my Facebook emails, and found something that you have probably heard it often in your daily lives but find it quite interesting for today's topic :)

"Do not take it as a work, take it as something you love doing it daily"

" I believe in luck, and the way I looked things up is that the more you do your work, the more luck you'll get"

It doesn't have to be too many, only these two catches my eye. and YES you can relate your work or job or career or something you do your entire lives as 'something you love doing it daily'. I reckon, it has got to do with at least you like doing it, at least. Then I secretly asked myself, "Do you love doing research?" and in a second I heard "Yes, I do".

"May you have all the luck in the world" Oh I would love to have that and I wish you can have it too. but nothing in this life is free not even luck, so I guess by working my ass off,  I could probably get some luck in my hand. then I asked myself again "Have you been working your ass off?" "No, but I will try harder".

So why bother working?

or

why bother fussing around about your job! Quit then!

Ask yourself again. why do we live in this world? mencari RedhaNya. mencari RedhaNya doesn't always related to performing Solat and fasting. Working also as part of Ibadah.

That is when choosing the right career for you is crucial.

So tell me, I'm curious; what is your ultimate dream job would be?

ps April was awesome. April has bid us farewell.

Make me Strong

I know I'm waiting

waiting for something

something to happen to me

but this waiting comes with

trials and challenges

nothing in life is free

I wish that somehow

You'd tell me out loud

that on that day I'll be okay

But we'll never know cause

That's not the way it works

Help me find my way

My Lord show me right from wrong

give me light make me strong

I know the road is long

make me strong

sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I've lost touch

I know the road is long

make me strong

I know I'm waiting

Yearning for something

something known only to me

this waiting comes with

trials and challenges

life is one mystery

I wish that somehow

You'd tell me out loud

That on that day You'll forgive me

But we'll never know cause

That's not the way it works

I beg for your mercy

My Lord show me right from wrong

give me light make me strong

I know the road is long

make me strong

sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I've lost touch

I know the road is long

make me strong

"I build walls to see who cares enough to break them down..."

"and I finally learned what life is about...hanging on when your hearts had enough and giving more when you want to give up"

PS You(whoever you are)...please...