Why do you want to be a lecturer?

"Why do you want to be a lecturer?" asked the interviewer

I knew they'd ask me that sort of question, and I think I know the answer to that question at the back of my head, yes I know it very well but...

*blank

"Why do you want to be a lecturer, my dear? why are you here at the first place?"

I looked at a piece of paper I'm holding, I've scribbled some points I googled from last night, 10 points on why do you want to be a lecturer, 10 good points altogether. I smiled, I could just said, because I wanted to be a part of educating the society..then I feel, it's more than that, I put aside the piece of paper, but why then? why lecturing? because my dad once a lecturer? yes and no, my dad can be a big influence on me but  that is not the main reason for me to be a lecturer. urm then what? because of the money they paid you? I don't think so, money isn't everything...not really...

then I said, "Can I tell you guys a story?"

A story?

I've ignored the question and told them the whole story anyways.

When I was in standard 6, when everyone my age has to take UPSR (Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah), Well it was really a HUGE thing at the mo'. and when the school is worried about the passing percentage of the overall students, there were a few students who were really struggle with their studies especially with Maths and Science. and one fine day, the teacher called me and some of the students to teach after school and it wasn't a big deal for me because I live near by. We were assign to a student each and after school we have to teach them Maths and Science and at the end of the week, we have to report it to the respective teachers.

At the end of the task, our school did get what they want, everyone passed and not even a single person failed Maths and Science in UPSR, alhamdulillah :)

At that age, I thought I was only teaching Maths and Science to the student, I thought I was only helping the school with the percentage, and I thought I was only teaching 1 plus 1 equal to 2 but I was wrong until I met the student at one of our friend's wedding, one fine day. The student came up to me, and hugged me, I was surprised. She showed me her family, she's married with 2 kids at the moment.

"Hidayah, this is my family, and this is my kids, I'm doing just fine with my life right now, and all thanks to you :)"

"I'd probably didn't ended up being a doctor, being an engineer, nor even a businesswoman but I manage to jadi orang eventually and thanks to you, thanks for teaching me 1 plus 1 is 2"

I looked at her and smiled, I looked at her one happy family, even I don't have 2 kids right now, and I know exactly what she meant

...and that is why I wanted to be a lecturer at the first place.

thanks to her :)

...and and and the rest is history :P
---
Alhamdulillah, Allah granted my wish, Allah answers prayers :)

I could not thank Allah for everything Allah took, give and replace in my life. For I know Allah is the best planner.

Cantiknya aturan Allah untukku. Thank you Allah for everything You've given me :)

Thank you my family(daddy, mama, along, abg remy, abg, leesa, reyhal, angah, abg azhar, alya, atie and wanie), cousins and friends (you know who you are) untuk tidak putus putus mendoakan diri ini. Moga Allah granted Jannah for all of you :)

You, (whoever you are), I know you did pray for me last April when I attended the interview and I know you always do, thank you :)

If this is the best for me, for my Agama iaitu Islam, for my country and the people in it, insyaAllah it will be good :)

Make me a better Muslim and seorang yang bersyukur kepadaMu, Ya Rabb :)

Probably the best Hari Raya present from Allah, Thank you :)

Saya budak baru belajar, kalau salah tolong tunjukkan :)

If this is written for me, insyaAllah I will do my best!

Mari Mulakan Hidup Baru! :P

M41

"M 41"

"Sulit dan Persendirian"

"Buku Pink; Malaysia Kita"

I've never been to any of the M41 exams before in my entire life; believe it or not. Today marked the first time in my life entering the exam hall for the M41 post. Probably people my age has sat for the exams for 5 times, more or less. I've received many invitations for the exam before and for other posts, but I was at Australia at that time :(

I was pretty excited actually even though I'm not fully prepared for the exam today. I've heard so much about the exam, whenever people talked about it, I would keep quiet and listen on how they said it was pretty difficult, about the Pink Book, about chances of people passing the exams or even the interview and also about people just won't give up even though they failed the exams. Secretly I would go to the Book Fair and buy the Pink Book and prayed at least to experience sitting for the exam and today my wish came true :)

I was lucky I guess, because the venue for my exam was at Hall 7, PICC, Putrajaya. It was not crowded, the place was air conditioned and comfortable. Overall, I guess, after waiting for 3 years to sit for the exam, I would conclude that the exam was okay, and yes difficult and yet confusing.

It started at 9 a.m in the morning and it ended at 3.30 p.m in the afternoon. It has 5 sections; A, B, C, D and E.

Section A (60 questions) normally covers General Knowledge and EVERYTHING about Malaysia. Yeh, you can say that I was ashamed to be called Malaysian because I find this section very hard :P

Section B (40 questions) covers on Penyelesaian Masalah. It was pretty easy actually but most of the candidates including me said that we don't have enough time to answer all questions.

Section C (20 questions) covers Pemahaman. They will give you essays in Malay and English; all you need to do is to answer 20 questions based on those essays given.

Section D requires you to write an essay in Malay. they will give you 3 questions, and you can only choose 1 out of 3 and write an essay between 300-500 words.

Section E requires you to write an essay in English. They will then give you 3 questions, and you need to choose only 1 out of 3 and write an essay between 200-300 words.

Alhamdulillah I managed to experience sitting for the exam. Now I know pretty much what they've been talking about :) I really wanted to experience sitting for this exam because most probably I always imagine sitting for this exam has similarity with the olden chinese sit for public servant exam that they showed in television. The ones that get through the exams must be pretty good. oh! I just watch too much television :(

Whatever happens...happens. Wish me all the best  :)

Oh! I've met familiar faces, not only 1 but plenty. some Bangians and also UPMians :) I wish them all the best as well.  I wish all of them, All the Best. Some of them, really wanted to work in government sectors specifically PTD. God's will, insyaAllah :)

Oh! what they normally say "Berkhidmat Untuk Negara" :)

I love you Malaysia, I really do, sorry for not knowing enough bout Malaysia, will try harder next time :)


Luckily it did not happen today :P

L, you will be missed..

Been wanting to write this yesterday *trembling*

---
Yesterday, 15th of December 2010, Wednesday was the day, my last day at work at L. *sobs*

I first came to L, in 2007, before furthering studies in Perth. Even though it was for a short period of tyme, I've learn that money do not grow on trees, you have to earn it, but therefore, if you've already earn it doesn't mean that you'll need to spend it, keep it some, for future. I was blessed for having that opportunity working there.

Then, this year, I came to L for the second time, not knowing what to expect. All I know that L has a project similar to my studies and I could give and take something for that.

At first I was a bit blur with the project itself, and what I've been taught in Perth, doesn't match at all, with what they all practice here in L. and of course I was mad and disappointed. but I wish that the project will be succeed eventually. All they need to do is believe in what they do and make it happen.

I don't hate L. not at all. some may think I do hate L, but honestly I don't. Yeh! of course it was a bitter sweet journey there. I have my ups and downs there. but I don't hate L. not at all.

My mom said that if I haven't been working there, I might not have met the person's in charge of the project and will not be able to finish up my thesis. and I think she's right. Thank you L, for helping me for that.

I've met so many wonderful people along the way. and experienced so many happy and sad moments together. and I hope it doesn't stop here, keep in touch and all the best.

I seriously don't know what the future holds for everyone else but everything happens for a reason.

Yeh! started to miss L already. L! you will be missed. thank and sorry for everything.

When you least expect something, you've got more than that. for me, I've got more than just working there. :)

OK! now I need a new job, career to be exact. thank you very much. Rezeki Allah ada di mana mana insyaAllah, pray for me guys.

Random

I work part time as an enumerator and one of the question I have to ask goes something like this, in your everyday's life, do you and your husband talked about your everyday's life, your worries and his worries, your happiness and his happiness?

And each time everyone answered yes to all above, a tiny feeling appeared and I guess it was jealousy.

Yes, one fine day I hope to share my everyday's life with that special someone, my worries, his worries, my happiness and his happiness, and yes I won't get bored with your stories, and I hope you won't get bored too with mine.

oh! one fine day, InsyaAllah :)

Enumerators WANTED!

Do you want to earn extra $$$cash?

Do you want to be a part of the experience?

Do you love doing research on any topics specifically Women?

Are you outgoing and energetic?

Interested in becoming an enumerator and lend a helping hand?

I'm not a recruiter but I'm helping a friend in need.

and If you think you have what it takes and love fun and outgoing adventure, come and join them!

you could email me your resumes or straight away email them!

They are really looking for people like you to be a part of this, specifically for areas in Pahang and Terengganu and they are looking for Chinese candidates also!

so, What Are You Waiting For?

image crdts: KANITA

I know the feeling!

One fine day...

"Hidayah, I want to talk to you about something"

'Sure, what's up?'

"My contract ends this month and some of the managers want me to work in their processes but..."

'But?'

"I tot of pursuing my studies or stay a bit longer in the department"

'Here's the thing, pursuing your studies is good, you're young, just make sure you have your heart and soul in it, plus going to other processes is good also, they're paying you more and yeh of course staying in the department is way better if you like what you're doing'

"I've got another job offer"

'Why r you making all these excuses?'

*pause*

"I wanted to stay in the department..."

'Good for you!'

"I wanted to stay in the department because I like someone, I've been spying on him..."

---

I know how you feel, even though i did not know exactly how you feel, liking someone from work but I know exactly how is it like, liking someone. period. Even though everyone is scolding you, seeing him makes you smile. Even though you're having a hard time, being with him tells you it's ok, it's not the end of the world. Even though it shows, obviously, everyone knows - still he can't tell, it's OK, everything will be alright in the end. Even though 'me liking you' sounds impossible, it's the best feeling ever. And that is enuff. more than enuff for me ;)

Tell you what! I know the feeling. Been there done that.

Hye! this one's for you ;)



image crdts: weheartit.com

Ask Mom

 

source: images.google.com.my

I don't know why am I writing this, and I really don't think it's relevant enuff since it's weekend but yeh who cares! I need an update!

During my UPM days, me and a close friend, Sally used to ask one question, actually the same old question over and over again. The one and only, specific-ultimate-question that I think by now if I were to ask the same old question over and over again I'd slap myself real hard this time. and I ain't kidding about it. The ultimate question would be : Why Do I Have To Go To School? We would ask each other during the ride in the bus on the way to the class, we would also ask that question during the class itself with the look "Really, why do I have to study again?", and we would ask that same old question after the class ended, and yeh we would ask that question during the time we had to finish our assignments/tests/you name it, sometimes we do text each other asking the same old question, at lunch or when we were having dinner, we would normally ask the same question also. oh! and not forgetting breakfast and brunch. That question would normally popped up! 

But by now, I do think I know the answer to that ultimate question. At least I know how important going to school is/was, at least in Malaysia. I'm not saying that studying will ensure your future, and I'm not saying it will make it brighter or darker but I'm pretty sure that it will help you, surviving in this world called Life. Well, actually studying is subjective, you get the picture? Well, at least SPM, if you're Malaysians.

Well, as I grow older, the same old question pops up again but in different version. This time, the question would be; Why Do I Have To Go To Work? Everywhere in this world if I were to go and ask that question, I reckon, I will get the same answer. What do you think that answer is? is it for enjoyment, to keep busy or? Well if you say Money, you are absolutely right. But the answer is wrong eventho it reflects the belief of the rest of the world.

Urm, so how does it work? Let's give it a try. You go to work to make money, correct? You need money to fulfill your lifestyles. You need home, car, basic necessities. Bottom line, you make money to fulfill your needs. What if by this time, you already met your basic needs, what's next? So you stop going to work? lazying around? or you still go to work to fulfill your dreams and desires? Everyone by now should at least have a dream. once you realize it, then work is nothing but a stepping stone to help you where you wanna go. The question would be, do you know at least, where you wanna go? and do you know what your dreams are? 

It might take awhile to realize a dream. Think back to a dream once you had. First, decide where you wanna go and make it happen. but to live that dream, you had to pay a price and guess what, the price would have been going to work. 

Please remember, dreams do come true ;)

Along that way, you'll come across some really nice people that will help you thru your way but sometimes, you'll come across some really not-so-nice people that will always bring you down no matter what. just remember these things will always make you stronger and God will always there for you no matter what also. 

Oh! writing this, take me to a song.

Life is a climb but the view is great!

oh! Some say, work is like monkeys climbing a tree, everyone's climbing at diff level at diff time, the ones at the top looked down and see smiling faces, the ones at the bottom looked up and all they can see were assholes.

I slept and dreamed that life was beauty, I woke and found that life was duty! Indeed, life is beauty ;)

Cheers!

Inspired by, Bob Urichuck, an international speaker.

Not bad at all...

for a starter ;)

First off I'd like to thank you Allah for...everything ;)

I really wanna share with all of you my dear readers, but I'm pretty sure not now, not at the mo'.

Had a lil early celebration for Xmas and New Year this morning and oh! it's true when one says

Everything you want is always outside your comfort zone ;)

Ah! let just sing Manic Monday by Bangles lalalalalala~

Just another manic Monday ;)

How are you guys btw?

Alhamdulillah...

Cyberjaya...Here I Come! ;)

 ;)
Maybe two, is better than one.

It's not easy to say NO after all aye?

Thank you Allah ;)

Kuching...I'm In Love

Just got back from Sarawak Bumi Kenyalang ;)
I'm loving it every bits of the city. bersih, lawa, sangat. no wonder been awarded as 'Healthy City'.

---
Reminds me A lot of a city that I miss ;)
Kalau nak compare bandar bandar di Malaysia, Kuching lebih kurang Malacca - my opinion lah.
sebab millions may have been to the same spot, but no two souls are ever impacted in exactly the same way - believe me!

Ah! I love Kuching ;)

---
Sarawak adalah negeri terakhir untuk project AIM ini. It has been an amazing experience for me and I believe to semua orang yang terlibat.
I know, I'm not here to change the world, that would be impossible and I'd go crazy.
So these are the least I can do ;)

I hope the outcome of the project will change abit/alot to the only thing that I've been fighting for, Malaysia has been fighting for, the world has been fighting for - POVERTY.

Faith. having faith.

Malaysia has so much to offer, believe me, so much!
Kau nak kain songket pergi ke Terengganu and Sarawak sebut sahaja which tribe you nak.
kau nak pemandangan lawa? MasyaAllah Kedah negeri Hijau belaka, kiri kanan sawah padi, Sabah pon apa kurangnya.
Kau nak makanan murah? Kelantan kau dapat makan nasi Kerabu tambah milo ais lagi RM2 setengah je.
kau nak bangunan tinggi tinggi cakar langit? Ah! kau tahu mana mahu pergi!
Kau mahu carik hantaran pengantin? along Gambir Street banyak, kau pilih sahaja.

Tak perlulah terlalu mengagongkan dua negara ini In*** dan Si**, tak perlulah. Malaysia has so much to offer ;)

Kalau di beri peluang kedua untuk re-do this project. I'd love to, I wanna see more, I wanna see Malaysia more. Terima Kaseh beri saya peluang ini ;)

Conclusion- nya " Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul ".
Tp Ringan sama dijinjing, berat sama dipikul rite? kita kan 1Malaysia. hi5 sikit ;)

Hope you'll njoy the clip ;)

Serunding anyone?

Surprise! I've told you earlier that I will update you guys with some yummy-lious updates. So here goes.

---
Start off, I am helping out the Uni and AIM (stands for Amanah Ikhtiar Malaysia) and also EPU (Economic Planning Unit) doing a survey on Urban/ Rural Poverty in Malaysia. yep you heard me, whole Malaysia. AIM is giving away pinjaman berupa $$$ to those yang unfortunate enuff. In return they have to at least have a project or business to pay back AIM. Yep, most of people agreed if nak maju, if nak kaya, if nak berjaya, if nak $$$, kene usaha sendiri - tapi usaha yang bagaimana? dari rumah kayu ke rumah batu, dari rumah batu ke istana, dari tiada rumah sampai ada rumah. tidak semua orang hidup 'senang' dalam dunia ini. yep, I myself shocked to death bila dapat tahu some people have to gadai tanah, barang kemas itu ini untuk masukkn anak masuk Uni. kais pagi makan pagi. Sadly to say, dalam Malaysia ini, ada yang masih susah hidupnya. ada yang hidup di dalam garisan kemiskinan. ada yang tak pernah makan KFC, ada yang perlu pinjam meminjam, ada yang perlu menangis untuk beg for food, $$$ dan pertolongan. YEP kita perlu usaha sendiri, tp we can't help it, some people just can't afford it.

**bersyukur**

---

When I was doing the survey, asking them questions and see it for myself how they live...

There, when a makcik approached me asked for my help.

I'm now helping her jual Serunding to help her pay back AIM. Ada Daging, Ayam dan Ikan.

**The rest is history**

Let the pictures do the talking.

---





---



---




---
Enak kan?

Here are the prices for the serunding:

Daging
A-D = RM 7 ~approximately +/-150g
B-D = RM 11 ~ approximately +/-250g
C-D = RM 18 ~ approximately +/- 500g
1kg-D = RM 35

Ayam
A-A = RM 8 ~approximately +/-150g
B-A = RM 13 ~approximately +/-250g
C-A = RM 21 ~approximately +/-500g
1kg-A = RM 40

Ikan
A-I = RM 6 ~approximately +/-150g
B-I = RM 9 ~approximately +/-250g
C-I = RM 17 ~approximately +/- 550g
1kg-I = RM 33 ~approximately +/-1.05kg

You can also tempah according to mana mana pilihan hati for example if you want 2kgs in 1 bag pon boleh ;)

Prices are for Bangi area only. luar dari Bangi ada delivery charges la sikit but so far I've delivered to Kajang, Serdang, Shah Alam, Cheras and Ampang. No worries ;)

---
Serunding Makcik ni sungguh sedap and tahan 1 tahun because she goreng garing garing.

and Serunding makcik ini jugak tak berminyak sangat compared to mana mana serunding I've tasted.

and she giling ketumbar ketumbar yang ada instead of just tabur rempah ratus itu (ok! now im an expert plak serunding)

I can recommend you Serunding Ikan and Daging sebab sungguh sedap but I never tasted Ayam sebab tak sempat nak rasa sudah abis dijual hihi ;)

Dia pakai ikan Selayang so no worries tidak akan gatal gatal jika anda makan.


dia even letak lebey lebey serunding dia, just because...


---

So interested? place your order, leave comments, email me or contact me.

anyone yang on diet boleh lah makan serunding. bwk bekal pergi ofis, outstation, melawat orang di kampung (raya haji kan dh dekat).

anyone yang masih belajar, duduk kt kampus nk kunyah kunyah serunding pon boleh. yang dh bekerja pon boleh - boleh kasi kawan kawan ofis rasa ;)

anyone yang belajar/bekerja overseas Indon, Aussie/NZ, Europe, Middle East, Japan/Korea.
Kalau kt Aussie, declare as Fish Floss go to red lane ;)

mayb not now, but in the future?

anyone?

---
Btw, thank you to those yang dh beli, highly appreciated.

to those yang dh beli, and beli lagi, and recommend lagi kt kawan kawan. you're welcome.

to those yang went thru with me buat survey on Serunding and harga Serunding di Bangi esp.

yang jadi 1st customer, yang support me all thru. thank you thank you thank you ;)

image credits: images.google.com.my

**untuk gambar yang lain, maaf kualiti gambar buruk**

Yum-Yum ;)