Reclaim your heart by Yasmin Mogahed

I was in tears. Can't help myself. Crying.

"I hate this place, why are these people behaving like this"

"I wanna go home"

Eventually I cry myself to sleep. I'm not saying sleeping can ease the pain. NO! but it helps. so I slept for awhile hoping this hurt will go away.

I can't remember how many hours I slept but later i decided to wake up and face the reality.

I cannot behaving like this. This is not human. I remembered, in 2011, someone dear to me told me this.

"Orang Islam kena kuat"

I nodded and tried my very best to put myself together.

I begin with folding all the clothes and put it in the closet. unpack my stuff then I saw something, a book that I bought last week at Kino, KLCC along with cinta hati. I've heard about the book and been wanting to buy it, so the very first time i saw the book, I got excited but unexpectedly, the book is thin and quite expensive. lucky me I still have baucar buku, then i decided to buy the book, thanks to the voucher. the book at Kino is RM104 ++. I really can't remember.

Then I stop doing everything I'm doing, I took the book, and open it. It suits the title. It reclaim the heart. I was in tears also but this time not because I was upset. its different.

The first chapter of the book is called "Why do people have to leave each other?" It was actually a dream by the author asking the same question. I cried reading the conclusion of the chapter: " ultimately the question was about the nature of the dunya as a place of fleeting moments and temporary attachments. as a place where people are with you today and leave or die tomorrow...

I remembered crying the whole time reading this book. it brought tears in my eyes on how wonderful, almost perfect choice of words used by the author. But I know it is Allah that helped the writer to write and it is Allah still, that bring this book to me.

I even wrote to the writer how happy I am having her book.

I'm suggesting each of you guys to have this book. I've placed this book at 'that place' so that when I'm lost or feeling alone, I could open this book up and know that I'm not alone, Allah is with me.

If anyone would like to purchase this book. kindly email me at hidcham@gmail.com only at the cost of RM90. Thank you :D

Highly recommended.

For a gift. For a wedding. For a friend. For sisters and brothers. For mothers and fathers. for yourself. for wives and husbands.

Happy reading!

Have a nice day everyone. B safe wherever you go.

love.

Everyone wants a perfect ending. But over the years I've learned that some of the best poems don't rhyme and many great stories don't have a clear beginning, middle or end. Life is about not knowing, embracing change and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next.

tears after tears.
I wonder if I ever be able to stay strong.
you have eaten me out.
with your words
and your actions.

I'm no perfect. I make mistakes. and so do you.
I'm here to learn.
to be better.
and not sour.
I forget how to smile.
I live in fear.
and I'm not happy.

But Allah loves me dearly. He surrounds me with loved ones.
the ones I've always wanted to be with - much more.
the family, the cats and fishes, the friends and also kekaseh hati.

But all I'm asking dear Lord, make me stronger each passing days.
make me survive these 2 years, insyaAllah.
and most importantly, be with me, each steps I'm taking.

and I know You are with me, always.

The Land Down Under

Di sudut hati kecil ku

tipu kalau aku kata aku tidak rindu

pada tempat itu

yang banyak mengajar aku tentang bangun jatuh kehidupan

teringin sekali aku membawa kekasih hati

berbulan madu di situ

bercuti dan berlibur

dan jauh sekali dari kesibukkan kota Kuala Lumpur

ingin sekali aku 

membawa kekasih hati

ke tempat bermainku

ke tempat menimba ilmu ku

ke tempat di mana aku lari minta berlindung

dari kesakitan hati dan manusia manusia

yang pernah buat aku menangis pilu

jika ditakdirkan rezeki ku untuk ke tempat itu lagi

akan aku bawa kekasih hati bersama sama sekali

walaupun dalam sedang dibuai mimpi

entah mengapa, aku rindu sekali pada tempat itu tanggal hari ini.

Shah Alam, 4th Januari 2013

PS bawa aku lari dari sini, sebentar cuma, aku mohon sebentar sahaja...

Happy 2013

It's never too late to wish everyone of you A very Happy New Year! New Year is just like any other day, I woke up this morning with the usual feelings and the same expectation; I just want to be happy. But the New Year's spirit is there, the feeling of wanting to be better and to do good things and to try new adventures. Bidding 2012 wasn't easy. All i can say is that, it was a good ending and a good beginning :)

2012: When a boy meets a girl. We talked. and it was epic. but then the sun came up and reality set in. Well, this is reality, right here.

Ps Pray for us guys, TQ :)

y o u k n o w w h o y o u a r e :)

kenapa kita tidak bangga dan senyum melihat kebahagian kawan kawan
sambil berdoa agar diberikan kebahagian dan keindahan dalam kehidupan
bukannya cemburu yang tak berhabisan
atau minta dia ditimpa kecelakaan

cukup2lah dunia saling bergaduhan
mengapa antara kita tidak senyum dan berpelukan?

Selamat tahun baru 2013 ♥

common sense

"kaum wanita senang masuk neraka kerana mulutnya, kaum laki laki pula kerana matanya"

"Barang siapa yang tidak menyibukkan diri dalam kebaikan, nescaya ia akan di sibukkan dalam keburukkan"

Malaysia, Happy Labour's Day!

After a very long hiatus and a one or two hesitation on deciding whether or not to blog again, I've decided to write on something on this blog after visited it a few times in this year. Yes, I miss blogging :)

So why bother blogging on this 1st of May? Labour's Day?

No specific reason. I'm merely a Part 1 student, not working YET and not going to Uni as well today. Decided to only chill at home and get some work done.

So in celebrating the Labour's Day today, let's talk something on jobs or career.

I woke up this morning and checked my Facebook emails, and found something that you have probably heard it often in your daily lives but find it quite interesting for today's topic :)

"Do not take it as a work, take it as something you love doing it daily"

" I believe in luck, and the way I looked things up is that the more you do your work, the more luck you'll get"

It doesn't have to be too many, only these two catches my eye. and YES you can relate your work or job or career or something you do your entire lives as 'something you love doing it daily'. I reckon, it has got to do with at least you like doing it, at least. Then I secretly asked myself, "Do you love doing research?" and in a second I heard "Yes, I do".

"May you have all the luck in the world" Oh I would love to have that and I wish you can have it too. but nothing in this life is free not even luck, so I guess by working my ass off,  I could probably get some luck in my hand. then I asked myself again "Have you been working your ass off?" "No, but I will try harder".

So why bother working?

or

why bother fussing around about your job! Quit then!

Ask yourself again. why do we live in this world? mencari RedhaNya. mencari RedhaNya doesn't always related to performing Solat and fasting. Working also as part of Ibadah.

That is when choosing the right career for you is crucial.

So tell me, I'm curious; what is your ultimate dream job would be?

ps April was awesome. April has bid us farewell.

Make me Strong

I know I'm waiting

waiting for something

something to happen to me

but this waiting comes with

trials and challenges

nothing in life is free

I wish that somehow

You'd tell me out loud

that on that day I'll be okay

But we'll never know cause

That's not the way it works

Help me find my way

My Lord show me right from wrong

give me light make me strong

I know the road is long

make me strong

sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I've lost touch

I know the road is long

make me strong

I know I'm waiting

Yearning for something

something known only to me

this waiting comes with

trials and challenges

life is one mystery

I wish that somehow

You'd tell me out loud

That on that day You'll forgive me

But we'll never know cause

That's not the way it works

I beg for your mercy

My Lord show me right from wrong

give me light make me strong

I know the road is long

make me strong

sometimes it just gets too much

I feel that I've lost touch

I know the road is long

make me strong

"I build walls to see who cares enough to break them down..."

"and I finally learned what life is about...hanging on when your hearts had enough and giving more when you want to give up"

PS You(whoever you are)...please...

Wanita itu Ibarat Epal

The fact that I love so much reading and writing about women, leads to this. but amazingly the more that I read about women, the more that I know even Wanita itu tinggi darjatnya, she still needs a man to protect her in any way and no matter how high her education is, she still needs a man to guide her, hopefully to Jannah, insyaAllah :)

...and in a way it makes me love myself even more :)
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In fact, I reckon many of you have read this and fyi, I love to read this especially when I'm down and deep down I know, everything happens for a reason :)

wanita itu Ibarat Epal :)

Suatu saat di pagi yang cerah, angin bertiup tenang. sinar mentari lembut menerangi alam, tetapi sayang itu semua tidak dapat meredam kegundahan hati sebuah epal yang berada tinggi nun di puncak. Sejak seminggu lalu, epal itu sibuk berfikir, kenapa aku tidak dipetik orang? paahal...kulitku licin mulus, warnaku merah bersinar, siapa yang melihat, pasti meluap luap seleranya. pasti mereka terbayang betapa manisnya rasaku. 

Tetapi...kenapa aku tidak dipetik orang?

Epal tersebut memandang ke bawah. Hairan, kenapa manusia lebih memilih kawan kawannya yang berada di bawah sana? Bukankah mereka tidak mendapat udara yang bersih dan cahaya mentari seperti aku yang berada di puncak ini? Bukankah kawan kawan ku itu banyaknya yang telah rosak kerana serangga?

Epal tersebut binggung memikirkan kenapa rakan rakannya yang telah banyak tersentuh dan penuh debu menjadi pilihan, bukan dirinya yang belum tercemar dan dijamah orang, apakah kekurangan diriku?

perasaan rendah diri mulai merasuk. makim lama makin kuat, diselangi rasa kecewa dan bimbang. murungnya tidak dibendung lagi. lalu, pada pagi yang damai dan indah itu, epal tersebut memutuskan untuk menggugurkan dirinya ke tanah. Ketika sudah berada di bawah, hatinya gembira bukan kepalang. Seditik lagi, aku akan dipilih manusia. warna merahku dan kulit mulusku pasti akan mencairkan liur mereka.

Epal menanti manusia beruntung itu. sayang sekali, sehingga malam tiba, tiada seorang pun yang datang mengambilnya. Rasa gembira pun bertukar menjadi risau dan sedih.

Siang berganti malam, hari bergantti minggu, kasihan...akhirnya epal itu busuk di atas tanah menjadi makanan ulat dan serangga. membusuk dan dipijak pijak oleh manusia.

Wanita itu ibarat epal. buah yang tidak berkualiti amat mudah dipetik dan dijamah dan diambil orang. tetapi epal yang berkualiti tidak terjangkau dan sulit dijamah orang. susah dipetik, susah digapai. Mahkota seorang gadis adalah keimanan dan ketakwaannya. Apabila hilang iman dan takwanya, hancurlah pesonanya. wanita sanggup jatuhkan martabat tingginya supaya dijamah oleh orang lain.

Wahai Wanita yang solehah tinggi martabatnya...yang terpelihara kehormatan dan izzahnya.

Bersabarlah! di saat tak ada yang memetik kerana ketinggianmu. Janganlah kusutkan jiwamu hingga kau rela dipetik dan dijamah oleh sesiapapun. seperti epal yang mudah dipetik ditepi jalan. Tunggulah, Allah pasti akan mengirimkan seseorang yang bersedia memetikmu pada ketinggian. Ketinggian yang hanya boleh panjat dengan tangga keimanan dan ketakwaan seseorang.

Ya Allah... ku tahu betapa banyak "perhiasan dunia terindah ini" mulai gundah. Gelisah menantikan seseorang. Sepertiga abad penantian kadangkala tidak cukup mendatangkan si pemetik epal yang dinanti. Wahai Zat yang menguasai seluruh makhluk, jangan biarkan wanita wanita mulia ini lelah di ketinggian hingga dia menjatuhkan diri tersungkur dari kemuliaan. Teguhkan hati mereka dan selamatkanlah mereka.

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For those, yang sudah dipetik, hargailah and those yang belum, mari berdoa, berdoa dan berdoa lagi :)

"Ya Allah, Ya Tuhan kami, sesungguhnya kami sangat memerlukan suatu kebaikan yang Engkau turunkan kepada kami, Ya Tuhan kami, anugerahkanlah wanita wanita solehah jodoh dan keturunan sebagai penyenang hati"

PS You(whoever you are) awak...awak...awak...

Wanita itu Ibarat Epal

manis

Aku pernah ditanya, laki laki yang macam mana penyejuk di  mata dan di hati?

without hesitation I answered, yang faham luar dalam :)

I know it's hard 'cause so often I've got;

"Kau ni susahlah nak faham"

"Adoi, at least I tried to understand you"

"Penat nak faham budak ni"
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This is me, and I've tried to change, I'm doing all I can probably partly is my fault but..

This morning on the way to Shah Alam;

"Hidayah, goodluck, aku doakan kau, semoga Allah mudahkan segala urusan kau, tak mau sedih sedih lagi okay"

I cried. I cried for oh! so many reasons. He understands me. I know he's talking about something else not only the journey to Shah Alam and I know he cared.

I cried because terasa ukhwah itu sangat manis.

I cried because dia faham luar dalam at the same time he's taken :P

"Semoga anda sentiasa berbahagia selalu dunia and akhirat"

Menunggu itu terkadang pahit dan sakit kan...tapi menunggu dengan sabar dan tawakkal itu sangat manis...sabar...sabar...sabar...The best has yet to come, insyaAllah :)

PS You (whoever you are), I know you're out there, I just have to wait a little longer because I know you're worth it :)

PetunjukMu

" Tuliskan rancanganmu dengan pensil kemudian serahkan pemadamnya kepada Allah SWT. Izinkan Allah memadam bahagian yang bukan ditakdirkan untukmu dan menggantikannya dengan rancangan yang lebih baik. kerana Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang baik untuk kita. Yang lebih baik untuk kita, mungkin bukan seperti yang manusia sangka. Selalu ada hikmah di sebalik rancangan yang Allah siapkan khas untuk kita, hambaNya yang beriman"

found this on the net and loving it :)

Ya Rabb, berikanlah hambaMu ini PetunjukMu, tuntunlah hambaMu ini di jalan yang benar. tuntunlah...tuntunlah...tuntunlah...ameen :)

be with me Ya Allah, every step that I take, every decisions that I made

PS You (whoever you are), jangan jauh please, be with me, support me :)

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Budak ini balik Perth hari ini

Safe journey, till we meet again, insyaAllah :)

Kenapa Tak Kahwin Lagi?

Hati ini panas sebenarnya. Bukan apa, kebelakangan ini rata rata rakan FB mengupdate status tentang;

Nilai Hantaran Kahwin Mengikut Harga Purata Terkini dan Status Pelajaran di Seluruh Semenanjung:-

UPSR, PMR/SRP: RM 1,000 - RM3,000

SPM: RM3,000- RM8,000

STPM/DIPLOMA:  RM8,000- RM12,000

DEGREE: RM12,000- RM15,000

2nd DEGREE/MASTERS: RM15,000- RM20,000

PHD: RM20,000- RM30,000

Seriously I've no idea why you guys come out with such status. probably for fun and probably just sharing information on Nilai Hantaran Zaman Sekarang! and personally I don't think it's necessary. Sadly, rata rata wanita yang mengupdate status status ini :(
We, women tidak ternilai harganya. and Mahar itu rezeki, rahsia dan hak masing masing. dan mungkin sesetengah pendapat mengatakan wanita yang baik itu rendah nilai maharnya. Agreed. Tapi tidak salah jika bakal suami itu mampu kerana Nabi SAW telah didatangi seseorang dan bertanya; Aku ingin memberi bakal isteriku dengan sebakul emas dan Nabi SAW menjawab; jika itu yang termampu olehmu, maka berikanlah bakal isterimu itu. Ikut kemampuan.

I'm not an expert and Who am I to judge, I don't have a boyfriend let alone getting married in the near future but Pendidikan itu hak asasi setiap insan yang bernama manusia, it stated in the Quran but if you're saying about pekerjaan Ya! kaum Wanita lebih molek jika duduk dirumah (sill baca kitab kitab untuk penjelasan yang lebih lanjut tentang ini).

I'm just sad, bila wanita itu dijualbeli menggunakan taraf pendidikan semata mata. sekufu itu luas maksudnya. Sad.
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Jodoh, rezeki, ajal dan maut adalah ketetapan Allah S.W.T. Allah berfirman;

"Tulislah segala sesuatu yang terjadi"

Maka dia(Qalam) menulis segala sesuatu yang terjadi sampai hari kiamat. lalu Allah memerintahkan para malaikat menulis empat perkara iaitu ajal, rezeki, amal, celaka dan beruntung.

kalau sebab miskin dan tiada duit, itu bukan persoalan pertama. Allah telah berfirman lagi dalam surah an-Nur ayat 32.

"dan kahwinkanlah orang orang yang sendirian di antara kamu dan orang orang yang layak berkahwin dari hamba hamba sahajamu yang laki laki dam perempuan perempuan. Jika mereka miskin Allah akan memampukan mereka dengan kurniaanNya. dan Allah Maha Luas PemberianNya lagi Maha Mengetahui"

Rasulullah SAW juga bersabda;

"Ada tiga golongan manusia yang berhak Allah tolong mereka iaitu seorang mujahid fisabilillah, seorang hamba yang menebus dirinya supaya merdeka dan seorang yang menikah kerana ingin memelihara kehormatannya"

Mungkin selepas ini, jika di tanya kenapa tidak berkahwin lagi?

"InsyaAllah... semua ini adalah rahmat dariNya Allah SWT" :)

Sorry if this entry tersinggung mana mana pihak, I mean no harm, God knows what will happen when it's my time tapi rezeki itu masing masing dan yakinlah padaNya, insyaAllah :)

PS You (Whoever you are), we'll work things out, insyaAllah, no worries :)

mungkin ini boleh jelaskan :)

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around?

...I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

Ya Allah

Seandainya rindu ini suci maka terbitkanlah

seandainya ukhwah ini kudus maka panjangkanlah

seandainya luka ini berhikmah maka biarlah

seandainya ingatan ini berfaedah maka teruskanlah

Kudambakan KeredhaanMu

Ya Allah

Hanya Engkau yang tahu apa yang ku rasa saat ini...

Aku tidak jemu berdoa kepadaMu meminta Petunjuk

Andai rasa kasih ini dapat menenangkan jiwa Kau berkatilah ia

Andai rasa rindu ini yang Kau kehendaki

Kau teruskanlah titip rasa rindu itu dalam hati ini

akan sentiasa menunggu andai itu yang tertulis

Random. This is totally random. I'm just sharing :)

PS You(whoever you are), come and save me please :(

Jarak antara dua hati

"La haula wala Quwwata Illah Billah"

suatu hari seorang guru bertanya kepada murid muridnya; "Mengapa ketika seseorang sedang marah, dia akan bercakap dengan suara kuat atau berteriak?"

seorang murid setelah berfikir cukup lama mengangkat tangan dan menjawab "kerana dia telah hilang sabar, oleh itu dia berteriak"

"Tapi..." guru itu bertanya lagi

"Orang yang dimarahinya hanya berada dekat dengannya. Mengapa perlu berteriak? kenapa dia tidak berbicara secara lembut?"

Hampir semua murid memberikan pelbagai alasan yang dirasakan logik mengikut mereka. Namun tiada satu pun jawapan yang memuaskan.

Maka guru berkata "Ketika dua orang sedang berada dalam kemarahan, jarak antara kedua hati mereka menjadi amat jauh walaupun secara luaran mereka begitu dekat. Oleh itu, untuk mencapai jarak yang demikian, mereka harus berteriak"

Namun anehnya, semakin kuat mereka berteriak, semakin pula mereka menjadi marah dan dengan sendirinya jarak hati yang ada di antara mereka menjadi lebih jauh lagi kerana itu mereka terpaksa berteriak lebih kuat dan keras lagi.

Guru masih melanjutkan "Sebaliknya, apa yang terjadi ketika dua orang saling jatuh cinta?"

Mereka tidak berteriak, mereka berbicara dengan suara yang keluar dari mulut mereka dengan begitu perlahan dan kecil. Seperlahan bagaimanapun, kedua duanya masih dapat mendengar dengan begitu jelas.

Mengapa demikian? Guru itu bertanya sambil memerhatikan murid muridnya.

"Kerana hati mereka begitu dekat, hati mereka tidak berjarak, sepatah kata pun tidak perlu diucapkan, sebuah pandangan mata sahaja sudah cukup membuat mereka memahami apa yang ingin mereka sampaikan"

Ketika kita sedang dilanda kemarahan, janganlah hati kita mencipta jarak, lebih lebih lagi mengucapkan kata kata yang mendatangkan jarak hati diantara kita, mungkin di saat seperti itu, diam mungkin merupakan cara yang bijaksana, kerana waktu akan membantu kita.

Ya Rabb...
Semua datangnya dari Engkau, dan semua akan kembali kepada Engkau, maka aku serahkan semua rasa ini kepadaMu Ya Rabb..Kuatkanlah aku menghadapi setiap ujian yang Engkau berikan, Ikhlaskanlah hati aku untuk menerima setiap takdir yang Engkau tuliskan kepadaku. Hanya Engkau Ya Rabb, yang mengetahui dengan benar dalamnya hati aku maka aku memohon tuntutlah diri ini untuk tetap berada dalam kebenaranMu Amin Allahumma Amin.

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I love you dear sister :)
PS You(whoever you are), I miss you even more...

Aku, Ramadhan dan...

senyuman :)
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Tomorrow is Hari Raya, and deep down I really wish Ramadhan is not leaving us soon yet. but who am I to question, Eid is all about kembali kepada fitrah manusia, Eid is about celebrating berpada pada; bersederhana, Eid is about bringing people closer, Eid is all about happiness :) even when Ramadhan is bidding us farewell :(

I could not conclude Ramadhan kali ini, I could not even put it in words; terlalu istimewa.
I've learnt a lot Ramadhan kali ini
I've gain and lose a lot too Ramadhan ini

Betullah Ramadhan itu bulan Keberkatan :)

but on top of all of that, I've learnt that Ramadhan is all about forgiveness :)

"Forgiveness doesn't change the past, but it brightens the future"

indeed.



Kesempatan ini I'd like to wish all Muslims in the world;

Happy Eid Mubarak Maaf Zahir and Batin

and all Malaysians, Happy Merdeka!



ps I've forgiven you long time ago, don't you worry, I'm sorry for all the things I did secara sengaja and tidak sengaja, we're only human and we're not perfect :)

You, (whoever you are), Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir and Batin, I really wish I could celebrate Eid with you :P

These two are among my favorite Raya songs all time :)

Semoga kita berjumpa lagi dengan Ramadhan yang akan datang :)

Be safe everyone, wherever you are!

Why do you want to be a lecturer?

"Why do you want to be a lecturer?" asked the interviewer

I knew they'd ask me that sort of question, and I think I know the answer to that question at the back of my head, yes I know it very well but...

*blank

"Why do you want to be a lecturer, my dear? why are you here at the first place?"

I looked at a piece of paper I'm holding, I've scribbled some points I googled from last night, 10 points on why do you want to be a lecturer, 10 good points altogether. I smiled, I could just said, because I wanted to be a part of educating the society..then I feel, it's more than that, I put aside the piece of paper, but why then? why lecturing? because my dad once a lecturer? yes and no, my dad can be a big influence on me but  that is not the main reason for me to be a lecturer. urm then what? because of the money they paid you? I don't think so, money isn't everything...not really...

then I said, "Can I tell you guys a story?"

A story?

I've ignored the question and told them the whole story anyways.

When I was in standard 6, when everyone my age has to take UPSR (Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah), Well it was really a HUGE thing at the mo'. and when the school is worried about the passing percentage of the overall students, there were a few students who were really struggle with their studies especially with Maths and Science. and one fine day, the teacher called me and some of the students to teach after school and it wasn't a big deal for me because I live near by. We were assign to a student each and after school we have to teach them Maths and Science and at the end of the week, we have to report it to the respective teachers.

At the end of the task, our school did get what they want, everyone passed and not even a single person failed Maths and Science in UPSR, alhamdulillah :)

At that age, I thought I was only teaching Maths and Science to the student, I thought I was only helping the school with the percentage, and I thought I was only teaching 1 plus 1 equal to 2 but I was wrong until I met the student at one of our friend's wedding, one fine day. The student came up to me, and hugged me, I was surprised. She showed me her family, she's married with 2 kids at the moment.

"Hidayah, this is my family, and this is my kids, I'm doing just fine with my life right now, and all thanks to you :)"

"I'd probably didn't ended up being a doctor, being an engineer, nor even a businesswoman but I manage to jadi orang eventually and thanks to you, thanks for teaching me 1 plus 1 is 2"

I looked at her and smiled, I looked at her one happy family, even I don't have 2 kids right now, and I know exactly what she meant

...and that is why I wanted to be a lecturer at the first place.

thanks to her :)

...and and and the rest is history :P
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Alhamdulillah, Allah granted my wish, Allah answers prayers :)

I could not thank Allah for everything Allah took, give and replace in my life. For I know Allah is the best planner.

Cantiknya aturan Allah untukku. Thank you Allah for everything You've given me :)

Thank you my family(daddy, mama, along, abg remy, abg, leesa, reyhal, angah, abg azhar, alya, atie and wanie), cousins and friends (you know who you are) untuk tidak putus putus mendoakan diri ini. Moga Allah granted Jannah for all of you :)

You, (whoever you are), I know you did pray for me last April when I attended the interview and I know you always do, thank you :)

If this is the best for me, for my Agama iaitu Islam, for my country and the people in it, insyaAllah it will be good :)

Make me a better Muslim and seorang yang bersyukur kepadaMu, Ya Rabb :)

Probably the best Hari Raya present from Allah, Thank you :)

Saya budak baru belajar, kalau salah tolong tunjukkan :)

If this is written for me, insyaAllah I will do my best!

Mari Mulakan Hidup Baru! :P

Kotak Hati

Tak usah kau terangkan ku tahu
Potret wajahmu di setiap penjuru
curahkan deritamu padaku
biarku rasa apa yang kau lalu

terang terang
bersama rasa sayang
ku biarkan kau terbang
terang terang
sudut kecil ku isi
untuk senyuman mu lagi

berbaring renung kita ke bulan
lagu yang ku tulis ku nyanyikan
lagu cinta tentang kita berdua
yang kan kita kenangi hingga tiba masa

mimpi mimpi
yang tak kembali
aku janji
janji tak akan pergi

If it makes you feel better, the least I could do is that I know, and I understand :)
Ya Allah, make you stronger, make us stronger, together :)

Bayu yang bertamu bersama titisan salju
dingingnya membeku hangat kalbu,
lantas, bilakah hati bertunas harapan aku dan kamu...?

aturan takdir atau jodoh yang diatur?


Suka lagu ini! Ya I know, you're not an angel, and me too :)

Of Serunding and Sarang Burung

I don't feel like writing this down but..
I've been making orders for Serunding and Sarang Burung before raya. Just in case anyone of you is still interested; please let me know, thank you :)

ps thank you regular customers, you made me smile :D *Alhamdulillah.

Happy Nuzul Quran

Bring Quran everywhere in your heart in your hand :)

Iqra' Iqra' Iqra'

(kalau tak tahu, kita belajar eh, jangan malu jangan segan, there'll be always a way, insyaAllah because mambaca Quran ini seperti tambatan haiwan peliharaan, cepat saja akan hilang di dada jika tidak diamalkan selalu and and and ketahuilah Syurga Allah amat merindui orang orang yang membaca al-Quran :) )

"Baca, hayati dan beramal" :)

ps Awak, whoever you are, semoga awak menjadi hambaNya yang sentiasa membaca Quran dan menjadikan al-Quran dan as-sunnah sebagai panduan hidup awak :) Semoga awak mendapat HidayahNya :)

Left Handers Day!

Today marked Left Handers Day, internationally :) and I did not know that until Sen wished me. Thank you :)

I always proud to be lefty. Always. only 10% of the world's population is lefty. but recently I tried to use most of my right hand not because I hated being left handed nor I tried to change my nature, is that I think using right hand most of the time has keberkatan :)

I read somewhere that one day Nabi SAW noticed a man eating with his left hand and Nabi SAW tegur him to use his right hand instead and the man replied, it's my nature and Nabi SAW said, that man is ego.

...and I don't want to be like that :(

but I know Allah is fair :) *Syukur

So Today, just so you know...

what more can I say :P

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Later that night, BFF and I went to Reko Central for this;

It was actually a Campaign on "Menutup Aurat"

Subhanallah, orang orang yang menuntut ilmu(read: ilmu dunia dan akhirat) memang tinggi darjatnya.

"Pakaian Taqwa"

Mari memakai stokin ye rakan rakan (read: diri sendiri). 

Forum "You are so sweet"

Semoga kita semua menjadi 'Cantik', biarlah tidak di mata manusia tetapi Cantik di sisi Allah :)

"Nafsu mengatakan wanita cantik atas dasar rupanya, akal mengatakan wanita cantik atas dasar ilmu dan kepandaiannya..dan hati mengatakan wanita cantik atas dasar akhlaknya"

Wanita yang cantik rupa tidak semestinya cantik akhlaknya, tetapi wanita yang cantik akhlaknya semestinya cantik rupanya (read: nur/cahaya) :)

wahai Lelaki Ajnabi, lindungilah kami dengan menjaga pandangan mu, dengan menutup auratmu (read: pusat ke lutut), dengan menjaga perbuatan dan percakapanmu, lindungilah kami, kami si kaum hawa :)

Cintailah kami kerana Agama kami, kerana rupa paras kami tidak kekal lama :)

C - Cantik dari segi fizikal, spiritual dan Rohani

A - Akhlak terpuji dan mulia

N - Nama dan panggilan nama yang baik baik

T - Taqwa "Sebaik baik pakaian adalah pakaian Taqwa"taqwa boleh diperolehi dari keikhlasan, dan keikhlasan perlu diterjemahkan melalui perlakuan

I - Ilmu yang seimbang dunia dan akhirat (from the True sources)

K - kecermelangan dunia dan akhirat

Comel dan kuat membebel :P

The Forum started at 10 pm after Tarawikh and..

ps Tq to both BFF for your time. It means the world to me :)

Thank you Allah for the opportunity :)

Mari Baca and Amik Iktibar, insyaAllah :)

I won't let go

You guys know who you are :)

Hold my hands, sahabat dunia akhirat

insyaAllah :)

<3

"Tidaklah sempurna iman seseorang di antara kalian sehingga dia mencintai saudaranya sebagaimana dia mencintai dirinya sendiri" (Imam Bukhari dan Muslim)

ps listening to Maher Zain Hold my Hands and dedicating it to all of you :) Salam Jumaat!