Friday, May 21, 2010

Ask me anything at

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind...

Love is... the reason we're here on earth! ;) Somebody once told me, to write well, you need to write what you know and this is what I know. I'm 25 years old this year and I've never been in love. I can tell you any love stories in the whole wide world based on movies I've watched and stories I've read, I can tell you what people had told me - they're on cloud nine, they're walking on water, and I can tell you anything you wanted to know but on love I have zero. Nothing to talk about, maybe there were few crushes and likes and things like that but no love, I don't think so.

And then I remembered writing something on love, 10 years ago. I was forced by my English teacher to write anything on love 'cause at that time he thought I wasn't being open up ENOUGH and things like that - bricks by bricks. I still kept the original essay and here it goes. Enjoy ;)


I don't really believe in love. I usually look at love as heartless, heart-rending, heartache, heartbreak or something which is a waste of time. But sometimes, somehow I just can't stop myself believing that love is serendipity. I agree that love has something to do with fate and destiny. I totally disagree that you have to go out to find your true love because when the day finally comes you will know that she or he is the one you've been waiting for. She or he is the one you want to be with for the rest of your life, forever and ever. But to get to that day that everyone has been waiting for, first you have to have faith in fate and destiny. I always believe that there's someone very special out there just for me in case he's still available, not Alicia's favourite guy and definitely not Marion's steady boyfriend nor any girls' precious husband. Is there really someone out there for me? Are we really meant to be together? Do I really have a soulmate? Or you're telling me that all I believe or hope or wish for is just a fantasy or a fairy tale just to cheer me up.

As a teenager, first thing that pops into my head about love is relationship between male and female, boyfriend and girlfriend. At this age you start to have a strange feeling towards the opposite sex. That's not all because love is universal. Everything in this entire planet is involved in love and of course human beings inclusive. Love grows among fathers, mothers, sisters, brothers, cousins, grandmas and grandpas in a family. A person who has so much love for animals is called a pet-lover. Their pet will always be their best companion. Nature is always a part of us. A nature lover will always ensure that the environment is protected. Can you imagine what the world would be like without any country? As a citizen we should have love for our own country. A patriotic person always shows love of one's country. Love also grows between husband and wife. Without them we're not suppose to be here. Love for your teachers doesn't mean that you're in love with them because you're attracted to them. It is to show appreciation for being such a dedicated teacher. Not forgetting love for a friend that is always there for you. Love is friendship.

What is love all about? Love is a strong feeling or emotion of deep affection for somebody or something, says the Oxford Dictionary. Love is also not a bed of roses, somebody always gets hurt. It is either you're the one who gets hurt or the other side gets hurt because of you. It is a very common situation but depending on the individual how they deal with heartbreaks. Have you heard? It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Well, this is life! To fear love is to fear life and those who fear life are already three parts dead. So when your hearts not in it, just please don't try to fake what you don't feel. Calf love also known as puppy love is a crush on somebody you like when you're in high school. This is the first time when you experience something new, something interesting. This is also the first time you get to know life better.

There's no place that far that love cannot reach. When it comes to liking someone, love knows no bound. Have you seen a Malaysian married to a German and still they live happily ever after? Of course they click on account of true love. Love is blind. No matter what age you are, how awful you look, what language you speak and how smart your I.Q are, is no longer a problem to love. When you're attracted to someone, beauty is not a concern. Nowadays people go for intellectual, less for sexual. Love exists when there's pity and concern for somebody or something. Cats for example. Everyone's looking for that something, that something is love, integrity and understanding, something that makes it all complete.

True love happens when you're willing to sacrifice for your love one. It is like a prince charming saving a lovely princess. You're willing to share everything, willing to tolerate, to criticize and able to change for good. Never say 'I love you', if you don't really care, Never talk of feelings, if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand, if you mean to break my heart, never say forever, if you ever plan to part, never look into my eyes, if you're telling me a lie, never say hello, if you think you'll say goodbye, never say I'm the one, if you dream of more than me, never lock up my heart, if you don't have the key. These phrases show how important true love is to me, to you and to everyone.

Everyone needs love. Love is something you share with others. If love's not that important, why is there one day or special day to celebrate love especially on Valentine's Day? War starts when there's no love. Love will make you happier and not too lonely. Love teaches you about ups and downs in life, to be more mature. Love makes you a better person. Love is not only by saying "I love you", it is showing how much you care about someone for example helping your mother in the kitchen. Remember there's no greater love than a mother's love. A really simple line can make you laugh or cry.

It is therefore understandable when one says, life with love is full of thorns and life without love has no roses. It's a fact that you have to deal with and face it. Each and everyone of you will experience love no matter how rough or good it will turn out to be. So there you are, love while you still can before the fire of life is shuffled out of you and when remorse and regret is of no consequence anymore. Confess, confess what's there to lose. When pride and ego's forsaken, you might never know, he might love you too. She or he, might feel the same way for you.

Written by,
(Ex-5 Budiman)

As I grew older, I guess that love waits for no man and as for that you just cannot sit and wonder where the hell is he or she, you really need to go out there and start looking and searching for the one. God knows, he might be in front of you, he or she might be your best buddy, your ex-schoolmate or some random guys working at your office. Gee, if you love somebody, set him or her free because if he comes back, he's yours and if he doesn't, he never was~


Monday, May 17, 2010

Empty Apartment

Versus, 2010

Buat 'awak' yang mahu berubah Berubahlah walaupun payah Berubahlah ke arah hidup yang lebih indah Hidup dan masa muda sekali cuma Sanggup nak sia-siakan tanpa redha-Nya?

A note to myself too.
Take you away from that empty apartment you stay...

Sunday, May 9, 2010

One-sided Love

The greatest pain that comes from love, is loving someone you can never have

Friday, May 7, 2010

Hug Please!

I've been stressing out lately. You name it, from the weather, urm, the-things-you-cannot-mention-here, down to one Uncle wanted to buy bread at 7-eleven asking for a plastic bag, wtfish! also gets on my nerves. ( It just not that Environmentally friendly lah Pakcik!~) I always wanted to be more patient, I swear to God, I've tried, I've tried to smile more, eventhough it may looks like a fake smile but I do try my best. I tried not to swear while driving, instead, I told myself that everyone is naturally a jerk when at streets. What else? I told myself that there are people less fortunate out there, there are people who doesn't have a house to called a home, there are people who doesn't have a shelter to avoid the rain, the heat and the dust, there are people who doesn't have money to buy clothes, food, there are people who doesn't even have hands to do work and there are people who doesn't have legs to walk and see the world. I always told myself that Happiness is a choice. and the real deal of a true happiness is only you and yourself can define it. For some people, having loads of money makes them happy, while some people, having many friends, makes them happy. and Some people gets excited over small things and it makes them happy. And for me, Happiness is like peeing in your pants, everyone else can see it but only you feel the warmth.

One day while browsing the net, facebook to be exact, I came accross something: 50 Tips for a better you.  And I told myself, what the heck, let's have a look. Maryam if you're reading this, yes this is from your page. thehe ;)

1. Take naps. Researchers at Harvard found an hour nap was a beneficial as a full night's sleep. (Sunnah too - 1 hour nap after Zohor).

2. Don't take things too personally. It's not raining on you alone. Maybe the waiter's cat just died.

3. Breathe. Holding your breath increases muscle tension.

4. When it's your turn to listen, don't think. Thinking interferes with hearing.

5. Eat only when you're hungry. If you're not hungry but you're eating anyway, it's no food you're needing, it means food for your soul.

6. Smile. Especially when you don't feel like it.

7. Smell the flowers. Research shows the fragrance of lavender and lemon, for instance, can lessen depression.

8. Balance your checkbook. It's actually less stressful to know where you stand.

9. Say no when you mean no, and yes when you mean yes.

10. Don't watch the 11 p.m. TV news. It won't make for a restful sleep.

11. Schedule fun. Put it on your calendar, or you might forget.

12. If you don't understand, ask. There are no dumb questions.

13. Stretch after exercising every time. If you do, you'll stretch your active years.

14. Don't fly on holidays.

15. Do what you say you're going to do. Even when you only say it to yourself.

16. Do puzzles; play games. Studies show it prevent senility.

17. Put the TV where you won't remember to turn it on.

18. Sit in the sun without sunscreen for 15 minutes in the morning. Vitamin D keeps bones strong. Sunlight lifts your spirits.

19. Assume the best. studies show optimists live longer, healthier lives.

20. If you're a shower person, take a bath. It's relaxing.

21. If you're a bath person, take a shower. It's stimulating.

22.Eat only what you love, not what you like, or what you tolerate, what you love.

23.Ask for a hug. Hugs are proven to lower blood pressure.

24. Strive for imperfection. Trying to be perfect causes stress. Stress lowers immunity.

25.Drink water. It's healthier than any other liquid.

26.Don't smoke.

27.Sit in hard chairs. They make you wanna get up and walk around which is good for you.

28.Realize not everyone will like you. Trying to make them is too stressful. Again stress raises blood pressure.

29. Be grateful. Because you have lots to be thankful for.

30.Finish eating before you are full. Aim for feeling satisfied.

31.When your worries keep you awake, write them all down. It will ease your mind so you can sleep. Throw the list away in the morning.

32.Never talk yourself out of how you feel. Feeling is healing.

33.Make yourself uncomfortable. Breakthroughs don't come from the status quo.

34.Ask yourself over and over, "What do I want?" How can you get it if you don't know what it is?

35.Turn the volume down. Musicians will be happy to tell you how they lost their hearing.

36.Call your mother. After all, she knows what you want even if you don't say anything

37.Clean out your closets, basements, and attics. Then give your stuff to people who need it.

38.Give advice only when asked. That's when it's most meaningful.

39.When you can't say anything nice, nod and smile.When people nod and smile at you, drop the subject.

40. Admit when you're wrong. Apologize and make it right.

41.Keep your perspective. Only the end of the world is the end of the world.

42.Now is better than later.Procrastination causes stress. Stress constricts blood vessels.

43. Embrace change. It's constant. Resisting causes stress. Stress, strokes and heart attacks are related.

44.Let your gut be your guide. If it feels wrong, it is wrong. If it feels right, it is right.

45.Blame is a way of avoiding responsibility. Just fix the problem.

46.If you can carry on a conversation while exercising, you're not getting aerobic benefit.

47.Get your thoughts into action. Otherwise, you'll never know your potential.

48.Lies are short-sighted. Honestly wins in the long run.

49.Have compassion. and include yourself.

50.Spend some time each day with your prayers. Studies show those with a regular spiritual practice, no matter what type, live healthier longer.

I hope you guys, by reading this will be a better you, insyaAllah ;)

OK! now give me a HUG! ;)

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