Everyone wants a perfect ending. But over the years I've learned that some of the best poems don't rhyme and many great stories don't have a clear beginning, middle or end. Life is about not knowing, embracing change and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next.

tears after tears.
I wonder if I ever be able to stay strong.
you have eaten me out.
with your words
and your actions.

I'm no perfect. I make mistakes. and so do you.
I'm here to learn.
to be better.
and not sour.
I forget how to smile.
I live in fear.
and I'm not happy.

But Allah loves me dearly. He surrounds me with loved ones.
the ones I've always wanted to be with - much more.
the family, the cats and fishes, the friends and also kekaseh hati.

But all I'm asking dear Lord, make me stronger each passing days.
make me survive these 2 years, insyaAllah.
and most importantly, be with me, each steps I'm taking.

and I know You are with me, always.

The Land Down Under

Di sudut hati kecil ku

tipu kalau aku kata aku tidak rindu

pada tempat itu

yang banyak mengajar aku tentang bangun jatuh kehidupan

teringin sekali aku membawa kekasih hati

berbulan madu di situ

bercuti dan berlibur

dan jauh sekali dari kesibukkan kota Kuala Lumpur

ingin sekali aku 

membawa kekasih hati

ke tempat bermainku

ke tempat menimba ilmu ku

ke tempat di mana aku lari minta berlindung

dari kesakitan hati dan manusia manusia

yang pernah buat aku menangis pilu

jika ditakdirkan rezeki ku untuk ke tempat itu lagi

akan aku bawa kekasih hati bersama sama sekali

walaupun dalam sedang dibuai mimpi

entah mengapa, aku rindu sekali pada tempat itu tanggal hari ini.

Shah Alam, 4th Januari 2013

PS bawa aku lari dari sini, sebentar cuma, aku mohon sebentar sahaja...

Happy 2013

It's never too late to wish everyone of you A very Happy New Year! New Year is just like any other day, I woke up this morning with the usual feelings and the same expectation; I just want to be happy. But the New Year's spirit is there, the feeling of wanting to be better and to do good things and to try new adventures. Bidding 2012 wasn't easy. All i can say is that, it was a good ending and a good beginning :)

2012: When a boy meets a girl. We talked. and it was epic. but then the sun came up and reality set in. Well, this is reality, right here.

Ps Pray for us guys, TQ :)

y o u k n o w w h o y o u a r e :)

kenapa kita tidak bangga dan senyum melihat kebahagian kawan kawan
sambil berdoa agar diberikan kebahagian dan keindahan dalam kehidupan
bukannya cemburu yang tak berhabisan
atau minta dia ditimpa kecelakaan

cukup2lah dunia saling bergaduhan
mengapa antara kita tidak senyum dan berpelukan?

Selamat tahun baru 2013 ♥