Reclaim your heart by Yasmin Mogahed

I was in tears. Can't help myself. Crying.

"I hate this place, why are these people behaving like this"

"I wanna go home"

Eventually I cry myself to sleep. I'm not saying sleeping can ease the pain. NO! but it helps. so I slept for awhile hoping this hurt will go away.

I can't remember how many hours I slept but later i decided to wake up and face the reality.

I cannot behaving like this. This is not human. I remembered, in 2011, someone dear to me told me this.

"Orang Islam kena kuat"

I nodded and tried my very best to put myself together.

I begin with folding all the clothes and put it in the closet. unpack my stuff then I saw something, a book that I bought last week at Kino, KLCC along with cinta hati. I've heard about the book and been wanting to buy it, so the very first time i saw the book, I got excited but unexpectedly, the book is thin and quite expensive. lucky me I still have baucar buku, then i decided to buy the book, thanks to the voucher. the book at Kino is RM104 ++. I really can't remember.

Then I stop doing everything I'm doing, I took the book, and open it. It suits the title. It reclaim the heart. I was in tears also but this time not because I was upset. its different.

The first chapter of the book is called "Why do people have to leave each other?" It was actually a dream by the author asking the same question. I cried reading the conclusion of the chapter: " ultimately the question was about the nature of the dunya as a place of fleeting moments and temporary attachments. as a place where people are with you today and leave or die tomorrow...

I remembered crying the whole time reading this book. it brought tears in my eyes on how wonderful, almost perfect choice of words used by the author. But I know it is Allah that helped the writer to write and it is Allah still, that bring this book to me.

I even wrote to the writer how happy I am having her book.

I'm suggesting each of you guys to have this book. I've placed this book at 'that place' so that when I'm lost or feeling alone, I could open this book up and know that I'm not alone, Allah is with me.

If anyone would like to purchase this book. kindly email me at hidcham@gmail.com only at the cost of RM90. Thank you :D

Highly recommended.

For a gift. For a wedding. For a friend. For sisters and brothers. For mothers and fathers. for yourself. for wives and husbands.

Happy reading!

Have a nice day everyone. B safe wherever you go.

love.

Everyone wants a perfect ending. But over the years I've learned that some of the best poems don't rhyme and many great stories don't have a clear beginning, middle or end. Life is about not knowing, embracing change and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next.

tears after tears.
I wonder if I ever be able to stay strong.
you have eaten me out.
with your words
and your actions.

I'm no perfect. I make mistakes. and so do you.
I'm here to learn.
to be better.
and not sour.
I forget how to smile.
I live in fear.
and I'm not happy.

But Allah loves me dearly. He surrounds me with loved ones.
the ones I've always wanted to be with - much more.
the family, the cats and fishes, the friends and also kekaseh hati.

But all I'm asking dear Lord, make me stronger each passing days.
make me survive these 2 years, insyaAllah.
and most importantly, be with me, each steps I'm taking.

and I know You are with me, always.

The Land Down Under

Di sudut hati kecil ku

tipu kalau aku kata aku tidak rindu

pada tempat itu

yang banyak mengajar aku tentang bangun jatuh kehidupan

teringin sekali aku membawa kekasih hati

berbulan madu di situ

bercuti dan berlibur

dan jauh sekali dari kesibukkan kota Kuala Lumpur

ingin sekali aku 

membawa kekasih hati

ke tempat bermainku

ke tempat menimba ilmu ku

ke tempat di mana aku lari minta berlindung

dari kesakitan hati dan manusia manusia

yang pernah buat aku menangis pilu

jika ditakdirkan rezeki ku untuk ke tempat itu lagi

akan aku bawa kekasih hati bersama sama sekali

walaupun dalam sedang dibuai mimpi

entah mengapa, aku rindu sekali pada tempat itu tanggal hari ini.

Shah Alam, 4th Januari 2013

PS bawa aku lari dari sini, sebentar cuma, aku mohon sebentar sahaja...

M41

"M 41"

"Sulit dan Persendirian"

"Buku Pink; Malaysia Kita"

I've never been to any of the M41 exams before in my entire life; believe it or not. Today marked the first time in my life entering the exam hall for the M41 post. Probably people my age has sat for the exams for 5 times, more or less. I've received many invitations for the exam before and for other posts, but I was at Australia at that time :(

I was pretty excited actually even though I'm not fully prepared for the exam today. I've heard so much about the exam, whenever people talked about it, I would keep quiet and listen on how they said it was pretty difficult, about the Pink Book, about chances of people passing the exams or even the interview and also about people just won't give up even though they failed the exams. Secretly I would go to the Book Fair and buy the Pink Book and prayed at least to experience sitting for the exam and today my wish came true :)

I was lucky I guess, because the venue for my exam was at Hall 7, PICC, Putrajaya. It was not crowded, the place was air conditioned and comfortable. Overall, I guess, after waiting for 3 years to sit for the exam, I would conclude that the exam was okay, and yes difficult and yet confusing.

It started at 9 a.m in the morning and it ended at 3.30 p.m in the afternoon. It has 5 sections; A, B, C, D and E.

Section A (60 questions) normally covers General Knowledge and EVERYTHING about Malaysia. Yeh, you can say that I was ashamed to be called Malaysian because I find this section very hard :P

Section B (40 questions) covers on Penyelesaian Masalah. It was pretty easy actually but most of the candidates including me said that we don't have enough time to answer all questions.

Section C (20 questions) covers Pemahaman. They will give you essays in Malay and English; all you need to do is to answer 20 questions based on those essays given.

Section D requires you to write an essay in Malay. they will give you 3 questions, and you can only choose 1 out of 3 and write an essay between 300-500 words.

Section E requires you to write an essay in English. They will then give you 3 questions, and you need to choose only 1 out of 3 and write an essay between 200-300 words.

Alhamdulillah I managed to experience sitting for the exam. Now I know pretty much what they've been talking about :) I really wanted to experience sitting for this exam because most probably I always imagine sitting for this exam has similarity with the olden chinese sit for public servant exam that they showed in television. The ones that get through the exams must be pretty good. oh! I just watch too much television :(

Whatever happens...happens. Wish me all the best  :)

Oh! I've met familiar faces, not only 1 but plenty. some Bangians and also UPMians :) I wish them all the best as well.  I wish all of them, All the Best. Some of them, really wanted to work in government sectors specifically PTD. God's will, insyaAllah :)

Oh! what they normally say "Berkhidmat Untuk Negara" :)

I love you Malaysia, I really do, sorry for not knowing enough bout Malaysia, will try harder next time :)


Luckily it did not happen today :P

The Land Before Time

I always love traveling. Berkelana di bumi Allah. Probably people would relate traveling as vacation, peace of mind, or perhaps running away for a while from your so called life. I used to think that way, when I have problems I don't intend to solve it, I would really like to go somewhere else for awhile, just for a peace of mind. but now I know that the truth hurts only if you run away from it. I reckon that, you could travel the world but you cannot run away from what's inside your heart. In my case, "What a small world" describes me well. normally where ever I go, I'd meet people who is related to a thing, a place, a person I know or I used to know. Everything would revolve around my small world :)

Alhamdulillah, God's will, on the 6-8th of July, me and my cousin went to Belum Forest, Pulau Banding, Gerik, Perak. It was actually a dream come true because I always wanted to go there and enjoy the forest.

Besides, reciting the Quran, for the peace of mind I reckon you either enjoying the environment or helping strangers. and I am so grateful I've got the chance to do either of that last week :)
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I've learnt a lot from the Emkay's Green Ranger Movement Convention. One of it was that through education we can educate our youngsters to love our forest. education here doesn't mean, one to one communication, doesn't mean either teaching in classes, you really need to go out to the forest to be able to love and appreciate it. Forest doesn't mean DANGER at all. and letting our youngsters even the old ones to enjoy the forest is the best place ever and it was like heaven on earth.

There, in the forest, you can learn where your water source came from, why we need to preserve our natural resources and why the forest is so important to us in the present and also the future. One day, if we destroy our forest, human will be extinct too and I don't think any of us would love that to happen. so each and everyone of us played an important role in educating people to love our forest.

The best part of the convention was we were able to go into the forest and enjoy the scenery. Subhanallah. The water is forever ph 7 and the clean air and the flora and fauna surrounded and even the native people in the forest and.. yeh! we didn't get to see Mr. Elephant but we can see some foot prints along Sungai Enam. Unfortunately, due to some time constraint, we did not get the chance to go and see the waterfalls.

If you were to ask, I'd say this whole thing "it brings back memories" when I was in UPM. Where we used to go into the forest for amali and camping in the forest for 2 weeks. at that time, I hated the forest but truth to be told "tak kenal maka tak cinta" I fell in love immediately with the forest.

Other than that, being able to mingle around with others, I've got to know other people, from a painter to a well-knowledgable boat man. I was blessed, thank you :)

This is the whole Pulau Banding

This is where we stayed for 2 nights, Belum Rainforest Resort

This is the Research Centre

It is stated that Belum is not "The Land before Time", Belum got its name from; A grasshopper.

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Thank you for the hospitality, thank you for the warmth welcome, thank you for the kindness, thank you for the care and thank you for EVERYTHING, kalau ada jodoh lagi, till we meet again, one fine day, InsyaAllah.. any takers?

Malaysia's rainforest has so much to offer, and I don't think even YOU have explored it, please do not destroy our forest, please~ :)

"Jika kita menyayangi makhluk di bumi (tak khusus kepada manusia sahaja), nescaya makhluk makhluk di langit juga akan menyayangi kita"

pictures credit to google

Hari Sedih Sedunia

"Satu antara resah yang berjuta"

"La Tahzan, please!"

Secret Code

Kisah Hari Rabu :)
taken from Terfaktab.

Don't

"Do not fall in love with me..."
...'cause I might cause you pain

Because A woman's heart should be lost in God, that a man must seek Him in order to find her, insyaAllah :)

Ya Allah, berikanlah kebahagiaan kepada orang-orang yang pernah memberi bahagia kepadaku..

P/s: Wahai Hati, apalah engkau merepek ini!?

The years teach what the days don't know

"Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun"

.

laknatullah alaihim ajmain. laknatullah alaihim ajmain. laknatullah alaihim ajmain.

ameen.







Dear friends and foes and everyone who knows me and who doesn't,

been living in this world for 26 years old and been doing sins to God, you and everyone who knows me and who doesn't directly and indirectly.

I'm begging you, please find in the smallest place in your heart to forgive me.

Who knows, we might not see each other ever again and I'm afraid I might not be able to say "I'm sorry" to you ever again.

Please forgive me, from the bottom of my heart.

dear loved ones and friends,

thank you for the kind words, thank you for the care, thank you for everything. Only Allah could re-pay you guys.

I love you guys, from the bottom of my heart.

Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hati ini dan bangkitkanlah diri ini dari kejatuhan. Lindungilah kami dari kejahatan dan mala petaka.

Orang Islam kene Kuat!

ameen.

Tetamu Allah

"This is not what I had planned, this is so much more.."

*speechless*

Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Mengetahui. Syukur yang tidak terhingga for given me this opportunity Ya Allah.

*speechless*

No words, for the first time. Of course I'm super duper Happy and a bit scared. but I know, everything will be alright.

Will be leaving this Saturday, 14th of May 2011, InsyaAllah with the whole family.

Ustaz kata "Pertama kali ini hukumnya Wajib". Yes, this is my first time. Jaga hati, jaga niat, jaga semuanya, pray for me. selamat pergi dan selamat pulang, insyaAllah. Minta ampun, minta maaf, halalkan semua semua. Ustaz juga kata, "Berdoalah kepadaNya dengan apa macam bentuk bahasa, Allah itu Maha Mendengar". Berdoalah, berdoalah, berdoalah, tanpa rasa jemu dan putus asa...

PS kalau ada yang hendak kirim salam kepada Kekasih Allah, kirim doa atau lain lain, PM me, insyaAllah I will try my best.

"...Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase..."

TQ Ya Allah.

Semoga peroleh HidayahNya.

ameen :)

Open our eyes, hearts and minds :)

The TRUTH will always prevails, it will never fail. 

Of cats

Oh! this entry has been in the draft for ages, because I'm afraid I might talk forever when it comes to cats, but today I have to write something..

You know that you have to jaga 3 things;

Jaga hubungan dengan Allah;

Jaga hubungan dengan manusia;

dan jaga hubungan dengan makhluk lain.
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Whoever knows me, will know that I love cats oh so very much. and anyone who has been to my house will know that I used to have 20 cats at one time. No kidding..

I don't know how it got started but Mummy never let us keep any of the cats. but I remembered coming home from school one day, at that time I was in form 3, when a small kitten followed me. I told the small kitten not to follow me because I know Mummy won't let me keep him but he followed me like we were destined. and the rest would be history.

From what I know, cats can be a good accompany. They never let me down. they know when I'm sad. they played with me. and when studying they'll sit on top of the book as if they know I don't like to study. kidding.

I can write you guys a book regarding to cats but I have a few named cats like Mimie, Coboy, Shumumu that were dearly close to me.

Agirl is the oldest cat in the house at the moment. she out-live her own generation. since she's very old and not really good with other cats, we let her sleep inside the house. and normally during Hari Raya she is the first to welcome you.

Recently this year, on the 17th of February (yes, my birthday), I received the most joyful birthday present; 3 little kittens. Nope, not from any of my friends nor neighbor, but Mak Hitam were pregnant that time and decided to give birth on the exact same day as my birthday. I was really happy back then. We named them; Hachi, Lassy and Snowy.

I favoured Hachi the most becasue Snowy is garang, and Lassy just plain sweet. Hachi likes to follow me around and never afraid of the people and the cars. but I never really get to know Hachi that much...

He died today. He was sick and we don't know why. Hachi, sorry for not paying enough attention, I love you so much and I think you know that. Thank you for being born on the same birthday as me and made me the happiest person that day, thank you for coming into my life, TQ sebab pernah membahagiakan dan menceriakan hidup ini. RIP.

In loving memory; 17022011-09052011.

*crying*

PS If you have a loving heart, please watch Hachi: A dog story and Marley and Me.

One of a Kind

You will be misunderstood, criticized, maligned, undermined, marginalized, ridiculed, and you will eat lunch alone.
Still, you must never be afraid to be wonderful.

You'll find that it's easier to not stick your neck out,
easier to nod your head,
easier to hold your tongue,
and keep the peace...

It's easier to be the wallpaper in the war room,
to be non-confrontational shade of grey,
to merge and flow with the traffic of other people's thoughts.

It's easier to be the charming chap with agreeable smile,
whom everybody likes,
but whose name they never quite remember,
"What a nice guy, what a nice girl..."
as they toss your card in the bin.

It's easier to be content,
to be satisfied with just turning up and taking part,
to pop champagne for bronze,
and throw parties for silver.

It's easier to settle,
but please, don't...
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I like this poem very much.
Belle, akak pinjam :P

Let's start over.
I'm type A(jenis darah) and I'm left-handed.
:)

Kuat VS Lemah

"Orang yang (kuat) itu adalah orang yang boleh menahan amarahnya..."

image source: google

Hari ini jadi orang yang lemah, and It is not a nice feeling. padan muka sendiri...

Sesungguhnya ujian kecil ini amat tidak larat untuk ditanggung. Sabar, bersabarlah wahai hati~
Hai, macam mana nak hadapi ujian yang besar-besar ni..

Kalau benar ujian ujian ini untuk mengajar diri lebih tabah, redha~ InsyaAllah ada hikmahNya.

Orang yang bijak mesti IQ dan EQ stabil.
mari semua jadi orang yang bijak. :)

I put my trust in You, Dear Allah, for You, Who knows the best.
please guide me and lead me to be a better me in the future, insyaAllah
For I who needs You the most, Dear Allah.

"Wahai Tuhan kami, tidaklah Engkau jadikan semua ini sia-sia..."

Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita

Enough is enough!

If I could turn back time, I swear to God, I wouldn't want to be friends with you guys at all.

My entire life, I've never encounter such people like you guys.

I know I'm no God, and who am I to punish people but Dear Lord, all I ask, is that You show them the same courtesy that they have bestowed upon me. Ameen.


It hurts, it really does. Thank you.

PS 'You guys" mentioned here are a bunch of sick people who likes to say bad things about others, always complaining and enjoying every second seeing others unhappy. please do not get me wrong. 


Taknak gaduh, tak suka gaduh, macam budak kecil tp kalau boleh putar masa dan untuk the near future, tak mahu jumpa orang orang macam 'you guys' lagi, ameen. 

Some things are better left unsaid.

I am absolutely cannot sleep. thehe.
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You know when people said bad things about you, because probably they don't get you, and you, in your smallest heart wanted to say some things to clear things out and to explain things making sure that everyone won't be misunderstood anymore, and then you come to a state where, you are tired of explaining things, and let things left unsaid, for better, even you know deep down you can make things clear and make everyone satisfied but not you?

I watched something on television the other day. there are this couple, who once happy together decided to be separated from each other not because they don't love one another, they just I reckon, lack of communication. they then decided to see therapist, for help.

therapist: what's the problem?

husband: we don't have any problems.*making faces*

wife:  he doesn't understand me.

husband: *making faces again*

therapist: why do you say that? why do you think that he doesn't get you?

wife: I've been so strong, in fact, stronger than before, not like any other person, but when I looked back, that is why he married me at the first place, he liked me because I was a strong person. but in fact, I am like any other person, any other girls, I cried, I need a shoulder to cry on, I want protection from him, I need someone who supports me and understands me.

therapist: what did you do, when you most need him?

wife: I just keep it to myself, hoping he'd understand when I'm quiet.

That's where it happens, most people don't communicate well, mostly with people they loved. and I know, being a woman, it happens all the time.

I remembered reading something on the net, called "carry me in your arms" and hope you'll enjoy it. it is understandable that most communication in this world comes from body language, up to 90%. but it is not wrong to say it once in awhile. but most probably some things in life, are better left unsaid.
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When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!


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Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up!


Cherish people around you, mostly your parents and family. cherish the ones you loved and the ones that loved you. 


Have a nice day! 

for everyone's sake

..and for mine too. I'm doing everyone's a favor. and I hope it's a right thing to do.

Lord, give me strength. ameen.





from the bottom of my heart, I hope you'd understand. I think this is for the best.

You know where to find me aites? :P

Cheers!

Closure

.

I know how much you treasure friendship, and how important your friends are to you and if you'd favor your friends over me, then it's okay. just please my dear friend, let our friendship remains eternity.

"If loving you meaning to let you go, and should you return, it is meant to be and shall you not return, it was never was, never is"

"I'm sure going to miss you"



"We started out as strangers, we met, we fell in love, and finally we ended up as strangers again"

With Love

From Paris, with love :)

If you love me, really love me?

enjoy!

PS tak boleh tidur, esok dah nak balik Malaysia, doakan semuanya baik baik, insyaAllah :)

Smile

Today I just lost a friend. and it feels like being slapped for a hundred times. Ouch!


Thank you for the bad mouthing behind my back, after these while. you're forgiven.

and thank you for everything.

Sorry for the things I've done to you accidentally and vice versa. from the bottom of my heart, I seek forgiveness, for I may not be perfect too.

Indeed, it's true when one says life is touch and go. the ones that matters stay.

Up until now I'm not sure why you seemed to hated me that much. urm. 

If it is about him. Well, to be honest, I love him. I love him. I love him. Yeh! I don't know what the future holds for both of us, but I love him. and if you were a good friend, you would have at least support me or him.

No worries, you can smile now, 'cause it's over between me and him.

but like I said before, "Untuk menjaga hati satu dunia, you decided to hurt the ones you loved" 

It's pretty normal actually. best of luck! :)

Silly, I even told everyone, I'm the happiest person on earth today.

gentle breeze, would you do me a favor?

2010, 2000 & 2007

These numbers, in a way has a similarity, a special place in my heart. 

"Bahagia"

Happiness is like peeing in your own pants, only you can feel the warmth.

:)