I was in tears. Can't help myself. Crying.
"I hate this place, why are these people behaving like this"
"I wanna go home"
Eventually I cry myself to sleep. I'm not saying sleeping can ease the pain. NO! but it helps. so I slept for awhile hoping this hurt will go away.
I can't remember how many hours I slept but later i decided to wake up and face the reality.
I cannot behaving like this. This is not human. I remembered, in 2011, someone dear to me told me this.
"Orang Islam kena kuat"
I nodded and tried my very best to put myself together.
I begin with folding all the clothes and put it in the closet. unpack my stuff then I saw something, a book that I bought last week at Kino, KLCC along with cinta hati. I've heard about the book and been wanting to buy it, so the very first time i saw the book, I got excited but unexpectedly, the book is thin and quite expensive. lucky me I still have baucar buku, then i decided to buy the book, thanks to the voucher. the book at Kino is RM104 ++. I really can't remember.
Then I stop doing everything I'm doing, I took the book, and open it. It suits the title. It reclaim the heart. I was in tears also but this time not because I was upset. its different.
The first chapter of the book is called "Why do people have to leave each other?" It was actually a dream by the author asking the same question. I cried reading the conclusion of the chapter: " ultimately the question was about the nature of the dunya as a place of fleeting moments and temporary attachments. as a place where people are with you today and leave or die tomorrow...
I remembered crying the whole time reading this book. it brought tears in my eyes on how wonderful, almost perfect choice of words used by the author. But I know it is Allah that helped the writer to write and it is Allah still, that bring this book to me.
I even wrote to the writer how happy I am having her book.
I'm suggesting each of you guys to have this book. I've placed this book at 'that place' so that when I'm lost or feeling alone, I could open this book up and know that I'm not alone, Allah is with me.
If anyone would like to purchase this book. kindly email me at email@example.com only at the cost of RM90. Thank you :D
For a gift. For a wedding. For a friend. For sisters and brothers. For mothers and fathers. for yourself. for wives and husbands.
Have a nice day everyone. B safe wherever you go.