Happy Halloween

Trick or Treat? Pumpkins. 31st Oct. jack-o'-lantern. costumes parties. ghost tours. PRANKS. telling ghost stories. Bo0! not gonna blog on Halloween. sorry everyone.

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It has been raining these past few days. makes you wanna curl up in bed, cuppa tea/coffee, good books, talking on the phone, dreaming, doze off. macam tahu tahu je. have you tried crying in the rain before? try it some times, obviously you cannot tell whether you're sad or happy. cuaca cuaca begini makes me miss something:

1. My dear Best Friend - Well, she's married now and I'm not eligible anymore to call her up 4am in the morning. Soon, InsyaAllah I will see her. Yay! you are dearly missed.

2. Arwah Shumumu - If only he's here. Only God knows why.

3. Holly Ramadhan - Rindu sangat. Harap harap dapat bertemu dengan Ramadhan akan datang, InsyaAllah.

I luf the rain. I always do. and I donno exactly why. But I know, half of the world dislike it. What about the poor who doesn't have shelter to live in, what about the animal out there? Well, doesn't matter, Hujan itu Rahmat.

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I had fun today. did some girls' day out with the mummy and sister. I didn't know we had a lot in common on shopping dear sis. We should do this more often then. What about you guys? Have fun today? Hepi weekend aye, mine's getting pretty fast. haih.



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Teruja Sangat!

I've never been so excited in my whole life (Ok! tipulah tu) but today i woke up early bukan sahaja nk habiskan kerja kerja yang bertimbun ini (OK! tipu lagi) tapi sangat excited bila dari dua hari lepas dapat sms dari Parkson kata hari ini ada 1 Day Special BonusLink's Members' Day. Bagi makcik makcik dan saya di luar sana yang selalunya dok eye-ing eye-ing satu satu benda bila masuk Parkson tapi keluar tangan kosong saja dalam hati Tuhan sahaja yang tahu 'bilalah nk Members' Day ni'. Today is your BIG chance. orang melayu kata jangan sia siakan lah.

For the past tak ingatlah months kot selama sudah pulang ke Malaysia ni been eye-ing satu hbag ni. kepada siapa siapa sahaja yang kenal rapat rapat dengan saya knows I LUF handbags. SANGAT! tapi tak pernah ada hbag warna hitam. God noes why. I've been traveling a lot also these past few months, ada kerja. So Im sad bila tgk hbag kesayangan dh buruk (OK, alasan tak kukuh untuk buy a new one). I've been looking for a hbag untuk traveling - not so big - not so small - just nice and practical. This one particular hbag yang I saw dekat Parkson nationwide sangat tick off all the boxes untuk ciri-ciri hbag idaman untuk traveling. OK! I'm just exaggerate lebih lebih sebab hbag tuh takdalah 'perfect' sangat. I told you - just nice.

So Today, if you happen to bump into me dekat Parkson, Alamanda tu tengah berebut rebut satu hbag warna mustard (tiba tiba jadi warna feveret selain purple) dengan mana mana makcik just abaikan. I might tag along anak anak buah. the more the merrier, orang katalah!

So apa lagi go! yang bekerjaya tuh no worries Sales end till 10.30pm. I don't need to elaborate more on the yummy offers and deals sebab eh! dalam newspaper pon ada lah iklan ni.

PS berdoa harap harap hbag mustard tuh belom dibeli orang. Ada rezeki lebih boleh beli barang lain juga.

G'day Mate! Have a Nice Day!

**Gambar hiasan, lebih kurang beginilah, cantikkan?**

Pegang Sampai Mati...

Selalunya bila umur dah capai 24 tahun, dah rasa sikit asam garam hidup, pahit manis suma suma sudah biasa-tak-biasa ditelan, sudah pergi merantau jauh ke negara/negeri orang, sudah gaul dengan peringkat peringkat jenis manusia pasti ada lah tak kurang satu atau dua prinsip hidup yang dipegang:

1. Buat baik BERPADA-PADA, buat jahat JANGAN sekali.

2. Sampai bila bila, Family always first.

Prinsip no. 1 banyak lah orang yang salah tafsir in the sense, buat jahat jangan sekali? meaning, dua tiga kali even sejuta kali pon boleh lah? tapi jika kau fikir elok elok dan pergi kedai beli or selongkar buku sekolah SPM Bahasa Melayu kau, kau pasti tahu maksud yang betul-betul bagi prinsip pertama ini, jelas tidak payah di xplain. tiada pon tersirat-tersurat. Senang sahaja, buat baik berpada pada, bukan suruh kau buat baik sampai kene pijak dengan semua lapisan masyarakat. berpada pada lah. In the end, kau juga yang tak sakit hati. Buat jahat jangan sekali, mahu tak mahu dilayan elok/direspect di muka bumi ini jangan lah berbuat jahat, sampai ke lubang cacing pon kau akan dibenci. orang kata, buat baik di balas baik buat jahat? kau sendiri lah yang teka.

Bila kau berbuat baik dengan manusia lain, kau akan dilayan baik, bila kau berbuat jahat dengan manusia lain, kau jangan pula salahkan siapa siapa bila kau di balas jahat. Tapi semua tak semudah itu kan? bila kau sudah berbuat baik pijak semut pon tak mati, kau masih dilayan jahat apa perlu kau buat? berbuat jahat juga? bukan nnti kau sama sahaja dengan mereka mereka yang berbuat jahat? saja nk berbalas balas? kau bukannya Hakim Negara senang senang hendak jatuhkan hukuman keatas setiap manusia. Obviously kau bukan Tuhan nak letakkan siapa jahat masuk neraka, siapa baik masuk syurga. Kalau nasib kau baik, Tuhan balas 'cash' sahaja ke atas mana mana manusia yang berbuat jahat di muka bumi ini. Karma, tak siapa boleh jangka. masa itu kau boleh senyum lebar sambil melihat sahaja dan muhasabahkan diri anda. Sepandai pandai tupai melompatlah... Hendak seronok seronok sekali sekala itu belakang cerita.

Yang kedua ini lagi jelas dan nyata. contradiction betul bila famili always first tapi turun tempat kedua dalam prinsip hidup. Dalam situasi di mana kau kene pilih between famili and frens, famili dan tempat kerja, famili dan mana mana pihak tertentu, fikir waras waras dan utamakan lah famili anda. bukan apa, bila kau susah pon famili kau yang banyak tolong, bukan siapa siapa. Dalam hal ini tak payah lah selfish sangat. Berkat dengar kata orang tua, ibu bapa, kau sendiri sahaja yang akan rasa nikmatnya nnti kelak. insyaAllah.

In the meantime, dua prinsip ini lah yang dipegang sampai bila bila, sampai mati untuk hidup dalam sanity di muka bumi ini. ragam orang macam macam, tak boleh dijangka. Life is bitter, jangan kau bitter kan lagi dengan perangai kau yang macam macam tapi jangan risau, dalam bitter bitter life itu ada manisnya.

Hari Khamis, Malam Jumaat

It's raining outside. Guruh ada lah sikit sikit.

Surau dekat rumah tengah baca surah Yassin. Tiba-tiba teringat hari ini hari khamis, malam jumaat.

Speaking of that,

Honestly I don't really know where it came from 'elok baca surah Yassin pada malam Jumaat'. If ne1 happens to know dari mana? Sunnah Nabi ke or nething please let me know aye? TQ

minggu minggu lepas a friend asked me dekat YM.

Hid, kau percaya Hari Khamis, malam Jumaat?

Bila ditanya tanya she referred hari khamis malam jumaat is baca surah Yassin pada malam tersebut.

I tot benda lain sebab ada juga adat melayu kita bila sebut saja malam jumaat cerita cerita hantu pon keluarlah.

then lepas itu I asked why?

lepas itu juga dia jawab, nuthing's personal saja mahu tahu pendapat kau, Hid.

Seperti di atas, I don't know where it came from and I never question. I don't know why maybe sebab dari kecil kecil lagi sudah di ajar di sekolah dan di rumah dan ikut ikut kawan kawan di matrix dulu bacalah Surah Yassin at least seminggu sekali pada hari Khamis Malam Jumaat. Mind you, Matrix Londang tu banyak hantu OK! hihi

Bila di fikir fikirkan balik, you've got nothing to lose pon rite? nak baca boleh, taknak baca pon bole. nak baca surah lain pon boleh.

Tapi bila fikir fikir balik juga, dah lah malas nak baca satu Al-Quran why not ambil masa sedikit baca Yassin setiap minggu. Orang kata, kalau tak baca Quran, ada tompok hitam di hati - hati akan gelap. kalau tak reti nak baca pon, belajar lah. kalau tidak pon kt youtube tuh ada je surah yassin tak percaya pergi search.

If tiada amalan-amalan beginilah maybe I don't feel that calm for the whole week.

Tiada juga penghasilan buku Surah Yassin yang kerap digunakan di surau surau untuk tujuan tahlil or now ada juga orang kasi buku Surah Yassin dekat kenduri kenduri kawen.

Baca ayat Quran satu huruf pon dapat pahala. MasyaAllah.

Im not saying I baca Yassin every week never fails. Oh Tidak! dengan periodnya lah, keluar shopping lah, dekat mamak lah, tengok wayang lah dan macam macam lagi tp saja peringatan untuk semua and diri sendiri. insyaAllah. Ikutlah masing masing. Ok now I sounded like Ustazah.

**Teringat zaman pemberontakkan hendak balik ke Malaysia dulu - atas sebab sebab beginilah yang membuatkan I really wanna go back - untuk dengar Yassin dekat surau katanya.

PS I wanna letak youtube Surah Yassin tapi tak reti. yep saya buta IT.

Quotes of the Day

Enuff of the sadness!

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writer's block. tonnes of works. quotes of the day:-

" Never bear more than one trouble at a time. some people bear three kinds - all they have had, all they have now and all they expect to have ". (Edward Everett Hale, 1822-1909)

Letter 3

Dear You,

I don't know where to start. I don't know what went wrong.

*crying*

I'm sorry if I ever made you sad. I'm sorry if I'm not good enuff for you. I'm sorry I had to go away. I'm sorry I'm not always there. I'm sorry for not being a good friend. I'm sorry I pretend not to care. I'm sorry I don't let it out. I'm sorry if I'm wrong. I'm sorry that I like you so much.

You've changed. I know, everyone does. But I don't feel like I know you nemore. And I think I'm losing my long-lost-friend.

*crying again*

But I know,

You're Happy now - with her. Congrats. If that makes you happy then I'm Happy for you. Please take care of her. Don't ever hurt her. Promise me?

Could you do me a favor?

Please jangan tunjuk sangat that u're happy - at least not for now. I've been fighting so hard to let you go. It's not easy, please understand.

*Saket*

Thank you again for the short time.

Take care my dear friend.

I wish you well ;)

From the bottom of my heart.

Letter 2

Dearest Friend,

I know I should not be writing you this and this is something that should be forever left unsaid but I cannot keep it any longer and I think...

...I'm in love with you.

YES! I like you for who you are.

**giggles**

Letter 1

To Whom It May Concern,

I don't have the guts to tell you this face to face and I don't think you even care.

that is why I am writing you this,

I just keluar dari relationship yang tah hapa-hapa three months ago. I don't need to define 'tah hapa-hapa' here sebab ia bukan lagi important to me. not nemore. two or three months ago. see, I don't even remember. But then, you came along. you brought sunshine into my lyfe. i was happy then. so happy that i let you in. you told me in the end everything is gonna be alrite. everything happens for a reason.I still remember, word by word.

You may not notice this, but I am very thankful that in some ways you helped me went thru everything. for that I thank you ;)

I love you my dear friend.

crazy/beautiful

Hye-yo!

I lost count berapa banyak attempts Ive tried writing a blog. re-write it. delete it. re-write it again and the list goes on. for some reasons:

I hate not know-ing who my readers are. Honestly sometimes I hate talking alone to myself.

Sometimes, you do get hate emails from your readers.

They might think you like to brag about your-so-called-life, your life is depressing, hye mulut orang mana boleh tutup rite?

other than that,

I have no other place to go to share my feelings and opinions on certain things. they said, talking is good but writing it out is better. lagipon sharing is caring rite?

I heard that you can make frens hopefully not foes and $$ outta blogging. thats kewl enuff.

People used to love me writing and it makes me hepi only God noes ;)

** This one is funny. I used to blog pretending to tell the world how I felt but deep down I just wanna tell that particular person tak kisahlah if im sad/in love or angry**

Well I think in this case, most people banyak jugak blog because of that.

Mind you, Im having a hard time expressing myself to the whole wide world. bricks by bricks get it?

Besides, i love reading blogs and sumtymes am wonder how can they write so free-ly ( I know its not easy) and express everything - they can change the world aye?

I miss blogging. enuff said.

oh Yah! I am really suck at introduction so if you happen to hate me and hate what im writing feel free to X yourself outta here other than that you are most welcome here ;)

PS Saya budak baru belajar kalau salah tolong tunjukkan sekian terima kasih ;)